“When life is this dull, you have to invent purpose. Collecting torn-up newspaper gives you a hobby, provides an anchoring intimacy with your surroundings, keeps the streets clean. Or so you think. Then one day you wake up and realise that it was all a con: what you had thought was an escape from madness was in fact the arrival.” Madness Book:Stuart: A Life Backwards Source: Stuart: A Life Backwards
“If Stuart is a freak... it is because he has had the superhuman strength not to be defeated by this isolation. It is because he has had the almost unbelievable social adroitness to be able to fit in smoothly with an educated, soft-skinned person like myself and not make me frightened half to death. If Stuart's a freak, I salute freaks.” FriendshipStrengthHomelessFreaksStuart Shorter Book:Stuart: A Life Backwards Source: Stuart: A Life Backwards
“At this time of day it should have been open and full of fifty fellow smackheads, crackheads, psychotics, epileptics, schizophrenics, self-harmers, beggars, buskers, car thieves, sherry pushers, ciderheads, just-released-that-morning convicts, ex-army, ex-married-men-with-young-children-who'd-discovered-their-wife-in-bed-with-two-members-of-the-university-rowing-team-at-the-same-time.” StuartStuart A Life Backwards Book:Stuart: A Life Backwards Source: Stuart: A Life Backwards
“It's a question I often ask myself: what would I do with me? And I don't know the answer. I don't know what I'd do, except run away.” KnowsRunningAsksAnswersRunning Away Author:Alexander Masters
“For a moment, I believe, there was a stillness. A shocking realization by all things - beetles, dormice, the spiders spinning their webs in the moonlight, even the hot metal of the tracks and the wind in the trees - that Death had just shrieked past like a stinking black eagle and made off with a remarkable man.” MenBelieveMadeMomentsPastI BelieveBlackTreeWindAll ThingsHotTrackRealizationRemarkableMetalsStillnessShockingSpidersEaglesMoonlightSpinningBeetlesWind In The Trees Book:Stuart: A Life Backwards Source: Stuart: A Life Backwards
“I don't know, Alexander, sometimes it gets so bad you can't think of nothing better to do than make it worse.” ThinkingKnowsSometimes Book:Stuart: A Life Backwards Source: Stuart: A Life Backwards
“And so on, until you arrive at the other side, among the purely abstract self-harming: the grinding over your failures, the refusal to remember anything good, the determination to ensure - if anyone falls into the mistake of making it clear they actually like you - that the next time round they change their opinion pronto. Emotional self-cannibalism, in other words, like those tessellated pictures of a person grappling with a mirror image of himself.” IfsPersonsSelfRememberFallNextSidesMistakeOpinionClearEmotionalLike YouDeterminationMirrorsRoundsAbstractOver YouNext TimeRefusalCannibalismGrapplingMirror Image Book:Stuart: A Life Backwards Source: Stuart: A Life Backwards
“Twenty miles on, we have spotted a roadside sign: 'CHAINSAW CARVED MUSHROOMS'. Troubles promptly forgotten, Stuart falls to gawping at the road ahead. What could it all be about? 'As one victim to another,' his body language seems to marvel, 'What's a mushroom done to deserve that kind of abuse?' Not even in the worst days of street-fighting did he ever experience ill-treatment on this scale.” KindDoneBodySeemsFallFightingLanguageTroubleStreetsWorstDeserveAbuseTwentiesVictimForgottenIllMilesScalesTreatmentMushroomsBody LanguageWorst DayRoadsideChainsawIll Treatment Book:Stuart: A Life Backwards Source: Stuart: A Life Backwards