“I don't respect these monsters but I weep anyway. I curl my fingers in so that my palms bleed, because I have been afraid of this whole entire life, of being a pretty little thing. being a pretty thing is a problem. no one wants you, not even the dead.” LifeProblemRespectMonstersAfraidWantsApocryphalPretty Little ThingPretty Thing Book:APOCRYPHAL Source: APOCRYPHAL
“… I am me, but am not me: I have spent my entire life & all of its suffering both as spectator & subject. a woman trapped eternally as a child waiting for the holy father. I look pretty but feel so young, standing on the curb sucking on the lemon of the sun.” YoungSufferingWomanChildTrappedPrettySubjectSpectatorApocryphalI Am Me Book:APOCRYPHAL Source: APOCRYPHAL
“… I am born and born again. I am born to represent the white plain of redemption to fuck carefully siphoning the blood out of you. I am reconstructing my body to take in what you took out, and it fits.” BodyBornRedemptionBorn AgainRepresentFitsApocryphalMy Body Book:APOCRYPHAL Source: APOCRYPHAL
“nostalgia will kill the good girl. the truth is you should not waste your time on being good.” TruthTimeNostalgiaBeing GoodApocryphalThe Good Girl Book:APOCRYPHAL Source: APOCRYPHAL
“I don't want to be loved despite my history: I want absolution, someone to observe my fitting-into and growing-out-of, someone to watch my spine make the mannequin come to life.” LifeLovedObserveAbsolutionMannequinApocryphalFitting IntoGrowing Out Of Book:APOCRYPHAL Source: APOCRYPHAL
“I am afraid of photographs. I am ashamed they will show where I really come from. From particles of light, a slow holding of breath as if I were filling with dirt & I am, because where I come from is a place outside and it is not normal...” AshamedAfraidPlaceOutsidePhotographsApocryphalWhere I Come FromNot Natural Book:APOCRYPHAL Source: APOCRYPHAL