“In moments of profound need and suffering, God remains silent and distant. Veiling Himself in holiness and pretending to care, He offers no release when I make the real call for help or rest. This silence makes me see God as selfish, revealing the opposite of His claimed sanctity. I don't really want to go to hell—matter of fact, this has never been my intention—but this thought really fucks with my head. This is the craziest thing I think about day in and day out.” GodSadTormentSuicidalSuicide Thoughts Author:Nathan Makhasane