P. Sheelwant Biography & Quotes

“… When I needed their support the most, one first threw me out … and, then, they all ditched me and departed as if in vengeance, yoking me up to nursing a child …”

Emotion Internal Dialogue

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Had Mom not given in to Dad’s tantrum … just to keep peace in home, I wouldn’t have come to the pass I am in. Even then, Mom couldn’t keep peace, and the brute threw me out!”

Emotion Family Drama

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Ganesh thought of Raman’s fragile frame and didn’t do what he could have done to him, and Dad … well … had I been Ganesh and he Raman, he would have shredded and thrown me to street dogs … I was his daughter and Raman, Ganesh’s none.”

Emotion Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Did you, too … think me a dog turd as Dad did? If not, why didn’t you fight, gouge his eyes out when he regretted you conceiving me? You know Mom; I felt like I was an illegitimate child dumped in a waste bin by her incestuous mother.”

Emotion Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… I had promised myself to go and ask for his forgiveness one day, but now that he is no more, I have lost that chance of amendment, too.”

Emotions Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Could I have missed them more? What a fool I had been while they walked and talked and lived …”

Emotions Helplessness

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Had Dad not thrown me out … for pursuing what I liked, and more so, for not pursuing what he liked, I could have probably said … . But as of now, I can’t. I know my conscience wouldn’t ever let me rest in peace, if I did.”

Emotions Family Drama

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… He was shouting all along, ‘so people want to make me regret’, and then came his full-throated war cry as if a triumphant cannibal was dragging his vanquished, and wriggling, enemy to cook for a communal feast…”

Emotions Family Drama

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Mom’s murmur, ‘Oh Mohan, you fool, couldn’t you help not wrecking the delicate balance I tried to nurture’ rings in my ears ever fresh…”

Emotions Family Drama

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Had I been less stunned, I would have gone to Mom, hugged and consoled her, but I didn’t dare; I couldn’t; not knowing who was devastated more; me or Mom.”

Emotions Family Drama

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Why hadn’t I, too, been on board AI 666? We could all have been having bonhomie as dead as when alive…”

Emotions Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Though I never agreed with him fully, a part of me wanted to listen to his words as if they contained kernel of truth and, yet another part, wanted to banish the echo of his words from my head …”

Emotions Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… I loved you, didn’t I, Dad? I could’ve come on one of these days to apologize to you for all my acts that had hurt you, only if you were there.”

Emotions Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Isn’t my literary career like that bird mingling in the nothingness, braying its heartfelt rhythm all along, all alone?”

Emotions Blues

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Poor little darling … Only if I had known some way to tell you Abdul’s opinion of you, without hurting you, I would have told you. It may break your heart but stop you from breaking up, that is.”

Emotions Helplessness

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… If I had the power to raise at least one from the dead, I would raise Iqbal; he was so indispensable to me …”

Emotions Internal Dialogue

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… The ferocious feeling of guilt within me, possesses me, time and again, shoving me to let them know. Nevertheless, how can I? Facts so explosive … every time I decide to tell, my courage fails me.”

Emotions Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… I could never get those antique furniture pieces back; ever. The loss was bearable, had Raghu not got an impression that I had lied to him …”

Emotions Disheartening

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… Why didn’t you ever tell me, Dad? I never loved you less than I did when you were so confident about the success of my tennis career; never.”

Emotions Internal Conflict

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… If I were ever to get power to retrieve photographs that I have burnt … I would crave to retrieve that ‘coach Mom’s’ photograph, the most. Feeling of guilty conscience of the nonsensical burning of that photograph, Mom being no more, would die when I die…”

Emotions Helplessness

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

“… You can never kill that ‘Helena’ because ‘she’ is ‘you’. She is as much a part of ‘you’ as your eyes, your ears, your arms, and your legs are. …”

Emotions Psychic

Book:The Foe Within

Source: The Foe Within

P. Sheelwant Biography

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