“Edwards knew that the constant spending and deliberate time-wasting was taking a toll. 'I know that if I get to the end of this year I'll have no dignity left at all,' he said. 'It's all gone. I live in a big fantasy world... It's sad.' He'd often end the day drinking even more to block out the world and allow him to get to sleep.” SuicideMental IllnessAlcoholicSuicidalityFantasy WorldLoss Of DignityShopohlic Book:A Version of Reason: In Search of Richey Edwards Source: A Version of Reason: In Search of Richey Edwards