“During the nine months I carried Cerian, God came close to me again unexpectedly, wild and beautiful, good and gracious. I touched his presence as I carried Cerian and as a result I realized that underneath all my other longings lay an aching desire for God himself and for his love. Cerian shamed my strength, and in her weakness and vulnerability, she showed me a way of intimacy. The beauty and completeness of her personhood nullified the value system to which I had subscribed for so long.” FaithDisabilityProlifeInfant MortalityInfant Death Book:Perfectly Human: Nine Months with Cerian Source: Perfectly Human: Nine Months with Cerian