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“When I think of him now, I see him in a way I couldn’t as a child. I see what a big brain he had. But I’ve lost the awe I had for him then. I held him simultaneously in awe and contempt when I was a girl. It was confusing and made me conflicted, just like he was. My awe has since turned to sympathy, even empathy sometimes, as I navigate the world as an adult and try to find my place in it. He always seemed to be trying to find his place in it. Even having lost the weird veneration that clashed with my disdain and hurt, I grieve for him. I grieve for what he, and we, could’ve been.”

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Blood: A Memoir

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Allison Moorer
Allison Moorer

Allison Moorer is a renowned American singer, born on June 21, 1972. She is known for her distinctive voice and emotional delivery, making a mark in both country and pop music. more

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