“There was this constant urge in me to tear my insides apart, I didn't know why. By the time I made my mind that it was impossible for me to do, there alighted the fear, haunting me with the words that rang constantly in my head, "You're not brave enough". I didn't feel devastated, I felt the urge to be devastated.” LifeFearGriefImpossibleSadLonelyBallsBraveryBraveAloneGutsMelancholyCowardNervesSuicidalHauntingDevastatedTearMoroseTimidDevastatingNot Brave Enough Author:Sanhita Baruah