“Again that long-ago phrase - a recklessness, an abandonment, a rejection of me by me - had returned to me. I was going to die anyway, wouldn't live long anyway, any day now I'd be dead, all the time, violently murdered - and that, I now understand, gave a certain edge. It offered a different perspective, a freeing-up of the fear option.” FearAbandonmentRecklessness Book:Milkman Source: Milkman