“I'm still trying to wrap my head around the absurdity of the fact that the day before she was here, and now, just one day later, she isn't. Think about it. Death is so fucking absurd.” DeathDyingDeath Of A Loved One Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“Hospice care? No, you must mean Frisbee game. Because there's no way my brother and I aren't outside right now playing Frisbee in the middlle of the street in the middle of summer and there are weird bugs everywhere no matter how much bug spray we put on ourselves and our mom is coming out to tell us for the third and final time, C'mon inside kids, it's getting dark.” DeathMemoriesDyingMothersHospiceHospice Care Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“I want to belong. Belonging makes things okay, and I want to be okay. I just want to be okay.” DifferentSadnessLonelinessIsolationBelongingBeing Okay Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“I needed a time machine. I needed to run around the past and gather up all the old, unbroken parts of me and try to Frankenstein myself back together again. My healthy body, my unjaded sixteen-year-old heart, my baby brain. I may not make such a pretty monster, but at least I'd feel like myself again.” SadnessRegretIllnessMelancholyThe PastParkinson S DiseaseParkinson S Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“I lead a double life. I'm John Wayne Gacy. I present myself in potentially awkward social situations as a laughing, colorful clown to gain your regard. If you ask my friends and neighbors, they will tell you I'm "normal" and that I "keep to myself." Meanwhile, there's a crawlspace in the basement where I've buried my secrets. It's starting to get pretty crowded down there, but they are mine. And there they'll stay.” SadnessLonelinessIllnessSecretsAwkwardness Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“Life is not meant to be a montage of catastrophes. It’s also not a giant prison, and neither are these bizarre, meaty casings we are housed in for the time being. And they’d make terrible ones anyway. These bodies aren’t exactly built to last. They get sick and get old and fall apart. But truth is, the me that is me is not the sick one here. And I refuse to feel imprisoned.” Life And LivingIllnessHuman BodySickness And DiseasesParkinson S DiseaseParkinson S Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“I don't want to hide. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to wander off into the desert in shame and die and become vulture food. Or end up keeling over just because I'm too self-conscious to leave the house. Cause of Death: Unnecessary Loneliness.” DifferentLonelinessIllnessAloneIsolationHidingSecretsSelf ConsciousnessHiding Feelings Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“I'm in hell. I'm separate from everyone and everything. I'm John Travolta in The Boy in the Plastic Bubble.” DifferentLonelinessIllnessSeparationIsolationSecretsAlone In A Crowd Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“It's amazing how fearless you can be when you want something bad enough, the lengths to which you'll go, the grit you'll put into the scheming and maneuvering. That's determination for you. I would have made a good bounty hunter.” DeterminationDrinkingFearlessAlcoholismFearlessnessWantingSchemingTeenage Alcoholism Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“Sometimes, you can learn something completely mind-blowing in yoga and then totally forget about it the minute you need it the most. Or just kind of choose to forget it. 'I don't need no philosophy, I need fixing.' Which isn't to say nothing ever goes wrong, because it does; or that they're aren't parts of you that you just can't bring yourself to accept or maybe even detest at times (which I know is a strong word but it does apply), because I'm sure there are; or that there's no such thing as catastrophe, because there is. Oh my god, there is. And sometimes all you want to do is fix it.” YogaIllnessSelf AcceptanceCatastropheSelf ConsciousnessYoga Philosophy Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“We've all felt a little incompetent, insufficient, overexposed, helpless, unlovable, terrified, defective, unfit and unsung at times. And deep down, for whatever reason, you might even think you deserve to. Because why else would you be feeling that way. Like the world is laughing at you. I promise you it's not.” FearSelf EsteemEmotionsInsecurityHelplessnessEmotional PainDark Times Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“Whatever made this world and everything in it isn’t wrong, it’s miraculous. Typos are wrong. That’s about it.” Self EsteemIllnessClarity Of MindIllness And HopeWrong BeliefClarity Of PerceptionWrongness Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“Fact: You are part Shakespeare. You are part Jack the Ripper. You are part dinosaur. You are part of a star that exploded way back at the beginning of time. On one level, you've already lived forever,. There is no separation.” LifeForeverSeparationAtomsThe Human Body Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“One of the hardest things you'll ever do is give yourself permission to be in pain of any kind. There's a reason we have survival instincts, so that we don't die. That goes for humans, animals (redundant, I know), all the fishes in the sea, everyone. Some researchers even say that even plants feel pain and a cucumber will scream when you cut it. (And some others say that's crap because they have no brain or central nervous system.) The point is, we're all wusses. And emotional pain is the worst.” PainEmotional PainSurvival InstinctInstinctsAvoiding Pain Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“Rise up and lift your sword, peaceful warrior. Keep it strong and steady. You've already lived and fought a thousand battles, and you're not here—again—to cower in fear and pain.” PainFearYogaWarriorEmotional PainYoga PhilosophyPeaceful Warrior Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“Fear is a bastard. Fear is an attention whore. I want to ask fear if it has mommy issues, because that’s the only reason I can think why it needs attention so bad. I want fear to get Parkinson’s. Then maybe fear will know how it feels to be on the run from something it doesn’t understand.” FearIllnessAfraidFear Of The UnknownParkinson S DiseaseParkinson S Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“One minute, I'm a tragically average, fair and freckled eighth-grader with algebra homework. The next, I'm one who has swallowed liquor. I'm a rebel. I'm a line-crosser.” DrinkingAlcoholRebellionRebelAlcoholismLiquorTeenage Alcoholism Book:Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass Source: Bent: How Yoga Saved My Ass
“I’ve always felt safer at night. You can be much more forgiving of yourself, not to mention the world and everyone in it, when your shortcomings aren’t threatened by the brazen light of day. And by shortcomings, I mean damage. The scars are still there, but at least they're easier to hide. I never understood why they shine a fluorescent spotlight in the faces of alleged culprits in old movies to get them to tell the truth. Put me to bed and turn off the lights. I’ll tell you everything. I’ll be who you want me to be, I’ll be honest. I’ll be who I want to be, I’ll be braver. Just don’t ignore me. I really do want to be stronger, sweeter, less afraid all the time. Maybe it’s a within-the-womb thing, but it’s safer in the dark. What they should really warn you about is the light.” NightFearDarknessDamageLight And DarknessScarsEmotional PainEmotional Wounds Author:Anne Clendening