“If I am on the move and not in one place, then I can perhaps outrun myself. If I linger, then like dark flies on a dead deer, the memories and thoughts land and terror seems to fester and pull me in. I cannot bear to be at [home], where too many people will be watching me, waiting for something to happen, waiting for me to sink or swim, when all I want to do is float, as I did in hospital when the present was held at bay.” GriefGrief And LossGrief Process Book:A Dangerous Place Source: A Dangerous Place
“The years softened the hard edges of my anger - for I was angry at my loss, there is no other way to describe the utter pain” GriefGrief And LossGrief Process Book:A Dangerous Place Source: A Dangerous Place
“She wanted to be woken by daylight, to hear the gulls above the rooftops; she wanted to know as soon as her eyelids lifted that she was not back in the past. She hated waking only to experience the jolt of remembering why her heart felt so heavy in her chest. The light might allow the ache of recollection to enfold her gently.” GriefGrief And LossGrief Process Book:A Dangerous Place Source: A Dangerous Place
“Now she could feel herself slipping back, as if she had managed to climb almost to the top of grief's dark void, only to lose her strength, her fingernails ceasing to hold.” GriefGrief And LossGrief Process Book:A Dangerous Place Source: A Dangerous Place
