Katja Millay Books & Quotes

“I hate my left hand. I hate to look at it. I hate it when it stutters and trembles and reminds me that my identity is gone. But I look at it anyway; because it also reminds me that I'm going to find the boy who took everything away from me. I'm going to kill the boy who killed me, and when I kill him, I'm going to do it with my left hand.”

Pain Death Dying Killing

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“It doesn't matter if you do everything right, if you dress the right way and act the right way and follow all the rules, because evil will find you anyway. Evil's resourceful that way.”

Evil

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“Do real boys actually call girls baby? I don't have enough experience to know. I do know that if a guy ever called me baby, I'd probably laugh in his face. Or choke him.”

Boys Baby Pet Names

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“I don't do hugging. I don't like people touching me ever when there's no treat involved. It's too intimate and it bothers me.”

Touching Hugs

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“People who have never been through any sort of shit always assume that they know how you should react to having your life destroyed. And the people who have been through shit think you're suppose to deal with it the exact same way they did. As if there's a playbook for surviving hell.”

Life Hell Problems Life Experiences Trama

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“I think I'll stay in pieces. I can shift them, rearrange, depending on the day, depending on what I need to be, I can change on a whim and be so many different girls and none of them has to be me.”

Self Pieces Myself

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“You know I meant it. I am human. And male. And not remotely blind. Do you want me to say it again? You are distractingly, even if-that-is-not-a-real-word pretty. You are so pretty that I bullied Clay Whitaker into drawing me a picture of you so I could look at you when you aren't around. You are so pretty that one of these days I'm going to lose a finger in my garage because I can't concentrate with you so close to me. You are so pretty that I wish you weren't so I wouldn't want to hit every guy at school who looks at you, especially my best friend.”

Love

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“My jealousy is a living thing. Shifting, changing, growing. Like my rage and my mother's regret.”

Regret Rage Jealousy

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants of shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck. I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet and walk.”

Loss Magic Weight

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“I will never forget what you did to me. I will never forgive it. I will never stop mourning what you stole from me. But I realize now I can't steal it back and I'm done spending every day trying to.”

Letting Go Forgiveness Tragedy Anger Survivor Forgive

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“My phone is on my bed, whispering in my ear like a bottle of scotch to a recovering alcoholic, while the rain continues cackling at me through my window.”

Regret Rain Phone Whisper

Author:Katja Millay

“I'd watch her, amazed at just how much a person could accomplish fueled by tea and regret.”

Regret Tea

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“People like to say love is unconditional, but it's not, and even if it was unconditional, it's still never free. There's always an expectation attached. They always want something in return. Like they want you to be happy or whatever and that makes you automatically responsible for their happiness because they won't be happy unless you are ... I just don't want that responsibility.”

Love Happiness Relationships Responsibility Unconditional Love

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“(Nastya hablando) No tienes que confiar en mi, no sé ninguno de tus secretos.”

Pensamiento

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“I decline the coffee. I don't drink it, because no matter how much sugar I put into it, it still tastes like ass-water to me. Maybe it's because my taste buds are so desensitized to sweet that anything not comprised of at least ninety percent sugar tastes wrong”

Coffee Sugar Taste Buds Ass Water

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“She's grateful for what she was born with. She should be. It's an awesome face, a perfect face, an ethereal face. The kind people write songs and poems and suicide notes about. It's that exotic kind of beauty that men in romance novels obsess over, even if they have no idea who you are, because they must possess you. That kind of beauty.”

Beauty Beautiful Face

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“I doubt taking in a sullen, bitter, teenage girl with more issues than National Geographic is at the center of the vision board for a single woman in her early thirties.”

Issues Bitter Sullen Vision Board

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“I really shouldn't be judging him on normalcy, especially when I'm watching him from the confines of my own, very precarious glass house.”

Judging Normalcy Glass House

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

“What did you call her?" she asks but I don't think it's her real question. "Sunshine," I say, and she smiles like she believes it's perfect and she may be the only person other than me who would think so. "What is she to you?" she whispers. The real question and I know the answer even if I don't know how to say it. Drew's muffled voice rises up from the floor before I can respond. "Family," he says. And he's right.”

Sunshine Josh Drew

Author:Katja Millay

“My parents needed to believe I was okay, so for a long time I tried to convince them that I was. I tried to convince myself, too, but I was a much tougher sell because I knew the truth. I was so very not okey. I realized that I was going to feel shitty either way. I was probably going to feel shitty for the rest of my life. A life I should not even still be living. A life that should have let me go. So I got angry. Then I got very angry. Then I got angrier still. But you can only go so long being angry before you learn to hate. I stopped feeling so sorry for myself and started hating instead. Whining was pathetic, but hate got things done.”

Hate Depression Okay Angry

Book:The Sea of Tranquility

Source: The Sea of Tranquility

Katja Millay Books

The Sea of Tranquility

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