“Enemies" don't exist externally. "Evil" does not exist externally. One has to assume blame oneself for being a worthless person.” LifePhilosophyEvil Book:Welcome to the N.H.K. Source: Welcome to the N.H.K.
“Listen, Misaki. In this world, there is an evil organization. Its name is N.H.K. N.H.K. is a huge organization that spans the entire globe. They're an evil, secret society, and they're the ones who put us through this pain. It's all the N.H.K.'s fault. After this, if anything bad happens around you, it's all the N.H.K.'s doing. Everything is the N.H.K.'s fault! For starters, the name N.H.K. itself is simply a coincidence. The actual name doesn't matter at all. If you don't like "N.H.K.", you can call it whatever you want. If you wish, you can even call it Satan. Or call it the evil God. It all means the same thing. It's true. The names don't matter at all. They're just a set of sounds. An imaginary enemy torturing you: That is the real essence of N.H.K. For example, take that girl from my high school literature club. To her, it could signify the 'Nihon Hiyowa Kyokai', as her own weakness continually defeated her. She was weak in both mind and spirit. [...] In the case of Misaki, N.H.K. means 'Nihon Hikan Kyokai'. Because of the misfortunes you were born with, Misaki, you saw everything in a pessimistic way. Please, forgive me for being alive. Don't hate me. You were always were self-defeating like that. Then, my own N.H.K... Well, it's actually the N.H.K.'s fault that I became a hikikomori, just as it's their fault that you suffer, Misaki. That's the truth. I learned this through a certain technique. I fought with them. I've been fighting them for a long time, but it's no use anymore. I've finally fallen victim to them, and they'll kill me before long. But Misaki, you're fine. You must live on, in health.” PainEvilSocietyWeaknessDelusionConspiraciesHikikomori Book:Welcome to the N.H.K. Source: Welcome to the N.H.K.
“Frightened of my futureless life, scared by my foolish anxieties, unable to see ahead and aiming nowhere, I continued ceaselessly living my ridiculously idiotic life.” LifeFearWorryFutureAnxietyHopelessnessAimlessness Book:Welcome to the N.H.K. Source: Welcome to the N.H.K.
“I just didn't understand. What should I do? What did I want to do? What was I thinking...? It didn't really matter if she died. That's what I thought. It's all the same in the end. The only difference is whether death comes sooner or later. Even if I do keep living, there will be only more suffering and more hardship. There's no meaning to it. There's no meaning to life. It would be better to die. This was a thoroughly logical conclusion that no one could refute. At least, I couldn't refute it. In fact, I doubt that anyone was less suited to the role of convincing someone else to give up on suicide than I was.” LifeDeathSufferingSuicideMeaningHardship Book:Welcome to the N.H.K. Source: Welcome to the N.H.K.
“I shut myself in because I'm lonely. Because I don't want to face any more loneliness, I shut myself away. [...] I'm greedier than anyone. I don't want some half-assed happiness. I don't need some partial warmth. I want a happiness that goes on forever. That's impossible, though! I don't know why it is, but in this world, some interference is sure to come. Important things break right away. I've been alive for twenty-two years, and I know at least this much. It doesn't matter what the thing is, but it will break. That's why, from the beginning, it's better not to need anything.” LifeHappinessBreakForeverLonelinessLonelyNeedInterferenceHikikomori Book:Welcome to the N.H.K. Source: Welcome to the N.H.K.
“No human beings, regardless of who they might be, want to look directly at their own shortcomings.” WantHumansLooksMightHuman BeingsShortcomings Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“Because of our broken instincts we are in pain. We continue in pain because our instincts have been twisted by reason. So, what are we supposed to do? Should we abandon knowledge? Throw away reason? In any event, that wouldn't be possible. For better or worse, we ate the fruit of knowledge long, long ago.” ShouldLongHas BeensReasonPainEventsBrokenInstinctFruitAbandonLong AgoTwisted Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“Being alone is best. I mean, it's true, isn't it? In the end you'll be absolutely alone; therefore, being alone is natural. If you accept that, nothing bad can happen. That's why I shut myself away in my six-mat one-room apartment.” IfsMeanEndsHappensNaturalRoomsAcceptingSixApartment Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“Don't you understand? Listen carefully to what I'm saying. If you do, you'll get it. you can grasp this easily. In short...in short, I shut myself in because I'm lonely. Because I don't want to face any more loneliness, I shut myself away.” IfsWantFacesLonelinessLonelyI'm Lonely Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“To a hikikomori, winter is painful because everything feels cold, frozen over, and lonely. To a hikikomori, spring is also painful because everyone is in a good mood and therefore enviable. Summer, of course, is especially painful.” FeelsCoursesColdSummerSpringLonelyWinterPainfulMoodFrozenGood Mood Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“There weren't any villains though. The world was just complicated in various ways, and there weren't any obvious villains to be found. It was excruciating.” WorldWayFoundObviousVariousComplicatedVillain Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“If that type of bad God did exist, then we could go on living in good health. If we could push the responsibility for our misery onto God, then we would have that much more peace of mind, wouldn't we?” IfsMindResponsibilityTypeGoes OnMiseryPeace Of MindGood Health Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“I've read over 200 self improvement books. I know what to do to change my life around, but I have the fear of that change. What will happen then? I have the fear that something unexpected may occur.” KnowsMayBookSelfHappensSelf ImprovementImprovementUnexpectedChanging My LifeSomething Unexpected Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“I'm greedier than anyone. I don't want some half-assed happiness I don't need some partial warmth. I want a happiness that goes on forever. That's impossible, though! I don't know why it is, but in this world, some interference is sure to come. Important things break right away. I've been alive for twenty-two years, and I know at least this much. It doesn't matter what the thing is, but it will break. That's why, from the beginning, it's better not to need anything.” KnowsWorldWantNeedsYearsTwoImportantMatterHalfBreakForeverAliveImpossibleThis WorldGoes OnTwentiesImportant ThingsTwo YearsWarmthInterferenceTwenty Two Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“Frightened of my futureless life, scared by my foolish anxieties, unable to see ahead and aiming nowhere, I continued ceaselessly living my ridiculously idiotic life. I was beset on all sides by invisible worries. So, I shut myself in and slept. I slept until sleep exhausted me. Spring passed, summer ended, fall came, and then winter arrived. Then, it turned into another gentle spring.” FallSidesSleepWorryAnxietySummerSpringWinterScaredFoolishInvisibleGentleFrightenedExhaustedIdioticEnd Of Summer Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto
“It's natural for a person to deny he's a failure as a human being. That's why he searches for somebody who is more miserable than himself. That's why so much animosity exists on the Internet. Those who aren't able to find a more miserable person turn to the Internet and call other people losers, even though they've never met just to make themselves superior. Isn't that pathetic? There's a sense of security that comes from speaking badly of someone else. But that isn't true salvation.” PeopleHumansPersonsAbleTurnsNaturalHuman BeingsSecurityInternetMetsSalvationDenySuperiorsMiserableLoserPatheticAnimosityMiserable Person Author:Tatsuhiko Takimoto