“I spent that night sat on his bed peeling the burnt skin off his back in huge white sheets. Most nights we would watch through the bedroom window as the drunks went past. One night a group was outside and had turned violent. Which wasn’t unusual but this night Alan shouted out of the window “that’s enough lads! Leave him!” They didn’t listen. He shouted again this time towards the house but with the window still open “Pat bring the shotgun!” They vanished. We didn’t even own a shotgun. We did own a blank firing six shooter pistol though. I don’t know why.” ViolenceMurderMemoirKillersAbuse SurvivorsGunsThriller NovelsFighting To SurviveManslaughterKnife Fights Book:Tracie's Story: Care Abuse Love Murder Source: Tracie's Story: Care Abuse Love Murder
“Macclesfield was like a wound I couldn't stop picking. I didn't know if I'd ever heal or if my constant pulling at the scab would leave me open to infection but I did know I had to keep doing it. I had to find out what lay beneath each layer of skin even if it meant that I felt more and more pain. It could have been another form of self harm or it could have been a part of my journey I just had to make. Either way I was compelled to continue. Could I get Jodie and Jonathon back? Could I see them playing again? Would Courtney accept me into her family? Perhaps I'd belong there until I got my family back together? Okay so I couldn't grow up with Alan as I'd liked but I could try and fit in with Clive and Phil. The thought hurt, I could easily turn to crime but how would that help with the social services?” DeathKillersAdoptionBereavementFoster CareFamily ProblemsAdoption StoryCare OrderAdoption AttitudeLost Mum Book:Checkmate: Care Abuse Love Murder Source: Checkmate: Care Abuse Love Murder