“I have just one selfish goal – to take what’s mine while receiving as much pleasure as possible.” PleasureSelfishness Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“Alex moves from New York to Seattle and asks me to join him. He asks me many times – sometimes insistently, sometimes pleadingly – but he never pressures me. I also never take him seriously, regarding our meetings as just a happy continuation of our summer romance. I don’t believe for a second that he actually means it, and I don’t hear him when he says he has built my dream house by the sea. As I mentioned before, I have always known where my horizons are and have no illusions on that score. But, most importantly, what could be worse than destroying your family for your own selfish pleasure?! Hurting those closest to me for some, no doubt temporary, fool’s paradise in America is just never going to happen. I could never do it.” PleasureSelfishnessAsk Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“Intelligent, artistic, hard-working, well-mannered, educated, decent... good! Strong! Masculine! What else... Oh yes! Good-looking, sexy, experienced, exceptionally knowledgeable in bed, always fashionable, stylish, fragrant, flawless, faultless, I’m-just-perfect Alex! And me? I’m just like everyone else: a cocktail of virtues and shortcomings served with a couple of flaws. And that’s why this superhuman is starting to infuriate me. I desperately want to hurt his feelings or at least offend him in some way. This seems like an unhealthy reaction at first glance but is actually completely healthy, because next to people like him – if others like him even exist – you feel more awkward, more flawed, more stupid, and more subhuman than ever.” Human Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“I love it when he’s happy, because the sadness in his brown eyes makes my heart ache, as I now doubt that truth is where I was told it was, suspecting that I may have even been deceptively and cruelly sent in the wrong direction.” SmileHappy Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“It just so happens that my coming of age coincided with the collapse of the USSR, the re-evaluation of social and public values, economic destruction, and horrific human impoverishment. All reference points were lost. Everything had collapsed and fallen into the abyss. Our parents had no idea how to keep themselves afloat, never mind how to instil the right messages in their children and set us off in the right direction. The poverty we found ourselves in depressed and frightened my still childish mind and, like the gravitational pull of a black hole, distorted my strict, true and correct bearings. People who have achieved success command respect and reverential awe, but one’s own inability to do the same subverts any sense of personal merit by triggering a spiral of self-recrimination.” Growing Up Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“That day, Alex’s emotional saturation reached its peak. His pain was so intense, and he was so young, that neither his amazing self-restraint nor his self-confidence were able to hold back the flood of feelings and emotions overwhelming him. It is the only time I ever see him like that.As for me, I found out early on, through personal experience, that falling in love passes quickly, as do strong feelings. I feel bad for him, but I know he’ll soon get over it. Give it a couple of months and he’ll find himself attracted to someone else.” EmotionsFalling In Love Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“He leans me back against his chest and we are both in complete and utter bliss, but me especially, because the wind and snow outside are unbearably cold. In fact, I called Alex on the way over to moan that I was freezing to death. And now here he is, warming me up with his body and the hot water, his arms wrapped around me. I feel like I’m in an invincible, impregnable wigwam of tenderness and affection. I am at peace, I am in ecstasy, I am in pleasure, I am in healing, I am in purging, I am in love...” In LoveWarming Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“But there is also my brain and it is gently, unobtrusively asking me questions that don’t require answers because the answers are already there: it won’t last; he’s just TOO perfect for me, TOO handsome, TOO sexy; I’m not the one for him, if such a person exists at all. Sooner or later it will come to an end because the feelings disappear, even the strongest ones. They are inexorably broken down by life’s worries and problems and the fears that come with them. But with Alex it will most likely happen sooner rather than later – he is just TOO seductive and virtually all women without exception look at him TOO greedily. When it’s all over, he’ll simply step over us and move on and I... I’ll be abandoned like an empty cigarette packet on a dirty pavement. I have no desire to fade away in the scorching sun, covered in dust and dripping wet with dirty rainwater.” Too Good To Be True Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“A hot damp touch on my stomach, another kiss. Then it’s my shoulder, my neck. I feel myself soaring upwards, literally, this time, because Alex is lifting me up. He does this often; he loves carrying me in his arms. It is at moments like these that he probably feels I belong to him and him alone.” In His Arms Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover
“His smell infuses your body with lust, his eyes drive you crazy, his hair begs to be touched to feel its softness, and his sensual, tender lips crush your willpower and make you his slave forever.You, but not me.” Beautiful Man Book:Monogamy Book One. Lover Source: Monogamy Book One. Lover