“He loathed the sword so that he didn't have to loathe himself - not that he didn't do both anyway, but he liked to keep his options open. He liked to pretend that loathing the sword eased the pain a bit. It didn't, of course. He doubted that anything could ease the pain.” PainSorrowGuiltLoathingSwords Book:Zarzar: the hole story Source: Zarzar: the hole story