“I realised that I did not want only to imagine, as a normal person might be satisfied with doing. They had roused within me a wild desire to be like them, to be them, to find the pleasure that they had found – a dark forbidden pleasure – and to act with the same beautiful voracity, the same unbounded passion as they had acted, showing neither shame nor fear nor uncertainty, only the most primal of desires.” DesireCourageEmpowermentSensualityFearlessness Book:The Erotic Notebooks Source: The Erotic Notebooks
“I felt desire too; desire to be as they had been; wild and exotic and commanding and willing to worship and be worshipped.” DesirePassionSexEmpowermentSensualityWildnessCommanding Book:The Erotic Notebooks Source: The Erotic Notebooks
“I had thought that by giving myself so fully to a single fantasy, by indulging in it without restraint or hesitation, I would be cured of all fantasies, able to put them from my mind and go back to living a normal life, or to the image at least of how I imagined a normal life should be. The effect, however, was quite the opposite. Having freed myself from the fear of committing an act I had previously seen as taboo, I had not banished fantasy in general from my mind, but rather had fuelled it. Other, darker fantasies began to haunt me, more daring fantasies, more exciting and lascivious.” SexFantasyTemptationSensualityTabooErotic Fantasy Book:The Erotic Notebooks Source: The Erotic Notebooks