“Trees lose their leaves in blizzards like these.” NatureSadnessDespairDepressionWinterMetaphorSnowHopelessnessTreesSymbolismLeavesBlizzard Author:Ashly Lorenzana
“It's always almost Autumn, down here at Rock Bottom.” SadnessDespairDepressionDrugsRock Bottom Author:Ashly Lorenzana
“My sadness is beautiful. It infuses everything I do. It is at the core of my identity and always has been, just as happiness is in some people. I refuse to be told that it's a flaw. I will not mute it with medications for the sake of society. I will hold it close to me and celebrate it rightfully while the rest of the world fails to see it for what it is and it will be their loss.” PsychologySadnessIdentityPersonalityDepressionHumanMedicineMental HealthMental IllnessMelancholyPsychiatryMoodyAntidepressantsMood Disorders Author:Ashly Lorenzana
“I'm pretty lost in becoming all this frost. Bitter, like Winter. Strung-out like a string of pearls.” PoetryLostSadnessDespairWinterBitternessPearlsHopelessnessFrostColdness Author:Ashly Lorenzana
“I was unhappy there and going through a rough transition, so I was desperate for any friend I could find that I could talk to. I thought that's what he was. We had this secret from my mom, who I didn't like much at the time. It was a harmless secret, so I didn't feel bad about it. All we did was go to the movies and hang out doing fun things all day. It wasn't until much later that the warning signs began, but I was still too young and stupid to see them for what they were at the time. Basically, he was patient as he built up the trust between us. He became a close friend and convinced me that he was on my side somehow. He took total advantage of my ignorance and totally betrayed me a few years later, when he slept with me. After my mom found out, she went psychotic and all she gave a fuck about was what had been done to her. She didn't care about anything except for how hurt she was by what had happened. She blamed me and him equally, telling me that sixteen years old was old enough to know better. Even though I never initiated a goddamn thing with him, and never would have. Even though it happened in the apartment she and I had gotten together, that he was not supposed to be staying in.” PainSadnessAbuseParentingBetrayalMotherhoodParentsMothersChild AbuseMothers And DaughtersGroomingBad ParentingStepfather Book:Speed Needles Source: Speed Needles
“It took me years to stop feeling the guilt she made sure I kept feeling about what happened with him. He is a sick person that molests children, but I felt so bad about it for so long. I couldn't talk to a single person about any of this. No one. And she made me feel so bad about it all that I felt I shouldn't talk about it, even if there was someone. I felt ashamed and thought I was an awful person. Sometimes I still do. My mother abandoned me in the worst ways possible.” PainFamilySadnessAbuseBetrayalMothersAbandonment Book:Speed Needles Source: Speed Needles
“The parts of me that hurt the worst want me to write something for them, but I can't. I don't know what to say. I'm lost in all this sadness, and so are they.” KnowsWantWritingI CanLostHurtSadnessWorstWant Me Author:Ashly Lorenzana
“My sadness is beautiful. It infuses everything I do. It is at the core of my identity and has always been, just as happiness is in some people. I refuse to hold that as a flaw. I will not mute it with medications for the sake of society. I will hold it close to me and celebrate it rightfully while the rest of the world fails to see it for what it is, and it will be their loss.” PeopleWorldBeautifulLossFailingSadnessIdentitySakeRefuseCoreCelebrateFlawsMedicationMute Author:Ashly Lorenzana
