“A belief in God may not be fully within me anymore, but there's still a belief in belief. The high drama and power of the Church has stayed with me. As a child in church, I saw grown men at the altar crying out for God's mercy. And the idea of someone doing that has become a joke in the popular culture, but when you are there and you see it, you experience - for a moment - an incredibly raw, honest, strange insight into what it means to be a human being. Those experiences don't leave you. Whatever you think of them, they are powerful experiences.” ThinkingMenMeanChildrenMomentsCultureBeliefChurchPowerfulHonestCryStrangeDramaJokesMercyInsightPopular CultureBelief In God Author:Ayana Mathis
“At some point I just acknowledged, at least to myself, that I had a great deal of respect for people of faith. Faith is a strange and wonderful thing. You come up to a kind of wall of unknowing and instead of turning back in despair you leap over it into something else. The Church isn't why I'm a writer, but it's probably a part of it.” PeopleKindChurchWonderfulStrangeWallDespairOver ItLeapUnknowing Author:Ayana Mathis
“By sixteen I thought, "Ah, this is all crap, you're all sheep, I'm not going to church, leave me alone." And then at a certain point in my teens I started to go to Catholic churches, by myself. Not because I wanted to be Catholic, but because I wanted to light a candle and say something like a prayer and just sit there. There was something I was missing or trying to reconnect with. But it was a secret at the time. I'd developed this cynical persona and the last thing I wanted to admit was that I was skulking around churches in my spare time.” TryingChurchPrayerSecretMissingCatholicCandleCynicalCrapLeaving MePersonaMe AloneLeave Me Alone Author:Ayana Mathis