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“Love meant being known. Being seen. Being accepted for all your flaws. And I knew, least of all, no one was going to look at my pile of dirty socks and think “wow, this one’s a keeper.” I was a romantic. A romantic who was terrified of romance. What a joke.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Love Romantic Romace

“Thirty-three years of my life had taught me to expect disappointment. That I wasn’t worth the effort. This was effort. Effort to please me. To…I don’t know—clichely get me to like him more? Romantic and clumsy, but…perfect all the same.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Effort Romantic

“Sadness is the addition of melancholy, you know? Blue. Silver. Gray. Heavy as syrup. Gentle as the evening tide. Sadness fades. It has a beginning, and an end. Sometimes it loops, but there’s always causation. Not to be confused with depression, because that’s a whole different demon.” [...] “What I’ve been feeling isn’t sadness. There’s no end to it. It’s a black hole. Sucking, sucking, sucking at me. Eating away till there’s nothing left. It’s black, black, black. The absence of light. The absence of feelings in general. Nothingness, in the truest sense of the word.” He swallowed. “Even I can’t paint nothing.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Feelings Sadness Painting Emotions

“And I’ll keep choosing you, even if you don’t want me to. Even if it hurts. Even if choosing you means losing you.”

Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To

Love Respect Loyalty Devotion Choice

“I’d never been like this with anyone else. I’d always been reserved, eager to please—a peacemaker, like Roderick. A people pleaser. A perfectionist. Docile and fake—so terrified of losing the affection I craved that I’d do anything to keep it, even compromise myself.”

Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To

Fear Loneliness Affection Need

“What if he doesn’t want me too? What if I implode my entire fucking life⁠—” “Then we’ll pick up the pieces and build something new.” We’ll pick up the pieces.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Fear Family Support Pieces

“His walls were gone. Left somewhere back at the airport where he’d had to tear through them to chase me down. Because that’s what he’d done. Worked through his own fears to meet me halfway—the way I’d always dreamed a partner would.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Fear Bravery Partnership Walls

“There was a smile on his lips, a private one, aimed out the window at the rolling fields of corn and the endless blue sky, not at me. But it was my smile regardless.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Smile

“I want to be the person you come to when things are too much. I want to be the quiet place you go to when everywhere else is too loud and all you have the energy to be is just…you.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Feelings Home Comfort Confession

“I wanted to be the standard he set for himself.”

Source: Bite Me! - You Know I Like It

Relationship Standard

“I’d never been valued as highly as Alex valued me. Never been treated so softly. Never had someone pay attention to me the way he did. Never had someone to protect me, or coddle me when I needed it, or allow me to coddle back. He let me need him and he didn’t get angry.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Attention Relationship Need Bond

“It ached so badly to ask for what I needed. Because I hadn’t before. And I was realizing…the more time I spent with Alex, how often I’d ignored my own needs to please everyone else. He paid such close attention it was impossible to be dismissive of myself when he was by my side. As though he wouldn’t allow it.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Attention Relationship Need

“Steps forward. Practice. Practice at being…valued.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Self Love Self Improvement Value

“He made me want to take charge of every aspect of his goddamn life. To make sure he ate right, to tuck him into bed on time, to fuck him when he acted up—and needed release. To bully my way into every aspect of his life so that I could ensure he was well-maintained and happy. To put that same dopey, needy look on his face like he was sporting now, all flushed and turned on—embarrassed by his own nature, but desperate to let go. Like I was the only thing that mattered. Like I was his world. And he was trusting me to take care of him.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Care Protection Need Dominance

“He might have wished to teach me a lesson I desperately needed to understand, the best way he knew how. Because it wasn’t until I was the one doling out orders and praise that I realized how easy it was to do so. How natural. How right. To take care of the person who relied on you. To…be kind to them. To watch them.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Care Need Lesson Praising

“When Richard said the word ‘baby’ somehow it didn’t seem condescending. It was gentle, kind. Baby from Richard meant, ‘It’s okay not to be in charge right now, it’s okay to feel small.’ It meant, ‘It’s okay because I’ve got you.’ It meant, ‘I’m sorry for your loss.’ It meant, ‘It’s going to be okay.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Care Assurance Comforting Nicknames

“Growing up meant realizing the adults you idolized were just as freaked the fuck out as you were; they just knew how to hide it better.”

Source: Bite Me! - You Know I Like It

Growing Up Adults

Book:Let Your Hearts Be Light

Source: Let Your Hearts Be Light

“Maybe, it’s stupid to worry so much about what anyone else thinks of you, me included. I’d be an asshole if I was annoyed you answered the questions I fucking asked.”

Common Sense Question

“I’d never expected to find a partner. I’d never looked. And yet, one had stumbled upon my little nest and found me anyway. It seemed the universe was looking out for me because Robin was the happiest accident I’d ever made.”

Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To

Destiny Falling In Love Accident

Book:If Only In Our Dreams

Source: If Only In Our Dreams

“I’ve never seen you act this way,” Mama said, sounding giddier than she should’ve. “I knew you could do it!” she declared, like seeing me in love was the most impressive thing I’d ever done. She said it in the same tone she’d told me she was proud of me when I’d graduated medical school. I wasn’t sure if I should be elated or offended.”

Family Teasing Funny Moment

Book:If Only In Our Dreams

Source: If Only In Our Dreams

“Sweetheart.” Mom’s voice was firm, her arms tightening. “Life is about the journey, not the destination.”

Life Life Lessons Journey

“It takes a lot of bravery to change paths so far down the road,” she murmured softly. “But turning back when you’ve realized you’re going the wrong direction? That’s not failure—it’s wisdom. There’s no shame in changing your mind. It’s how we grow. If you never try new things you might never discover what matters most.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Wisdom Life Lessons Change Decision Bravery Life Lesson Direction

Author:Fae Quin

“Because any time I’d given someone a part of myself that was vulnerable, they’d crushed it. There was no point trying. Not when I needed too much. When my heart was an open, gaping black hole—and I was “too much” for anyone to handle.”

Too Much Insecurity Need

“I wasn’t distrustful. I wasn’t cautious. I was naive. I was stupidly optimistic. I was the kinda guy who’d attach himself to a phone pole if he thought it looked at him twice. I was bound to make mistakes, lots of them. But that was okay. Because Prudence liked me anyway. I liked me anyway. He’d taught me that.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Self Love Self Acceptance

“And maybe I didn’t know how to love myself yet—but I knew with bone-deep certainty how to love George-Arthur Milton.”

Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To

Love Self Esteem Insecurity

“You’re…something else,” I said honestly, softly. The words were simple on the outside, but the true meaning behind them hung like stars in the air between us as I traced the first fledgling petals of a delicate rose beside one of the tentacles on his ropey forearm. You’re something else meant… You’re perfect. You’re wonderful. It meant… You’re surprising. You’re better than anyone I’ve ever met before. You’re confusing in the best way. Three innocent words, with a love poem hidden between the cracks.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Love Couple Confession Adoration

“I hadn’t lost my sunrise, after all. He was sitting right beside me[...].”

Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To

Love Adoration

“All my life I’d been the solid one. The dependable one. The one that laughed in the face of danger—not because I wasn’t frightened, but because you either laughed or cried, and I was sick and tired of being weak. Was it still bravery if you felt you had no choice?”

Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To

Bravery Fight Dependable

Book:Hunt Me! I Crave the Chase

Source: Hunt Me! I Crave the Chase

“Sometimes it's hard for both of us to realize that love, real love, has no stipulations." Miles sucked in a breath and his eyes burned holes into mine "It doesn't come with strings attached. And it follows you, no matter how far you run. It's messy and sweet, and if you let it, it fills in all your cracks and crevices.”

Love Quotes

Book:If Only In Our Dreams

Source: If Only In Our Dreams

“With him I didn’t feel like an honorary mention, but like I was the only option. Not because there was no better choice but because I was the best choice.”

Love Quotes Choice Being Chosen

“We all make mistakes. But we never stop loving each other. That’s what family is for. Everyone messes up.” “I don’t,” I said—quickly. I could’ve left it at that. Let this go. Like it really was as simple as one stupid decision and not that I was a bad bet, myself. But I didn’t. Because for the first time in my life I was ready to let her see me. Really, see me. My walls came down. “I don’t.” I bit my lip. “Not when it comes to helping our family. I can’t. I can’t make mistakes. I—I can’t. I have to be here. To fill in the gaps. To fix things. I don’t get to fuck things up. I protect us. I provide. That’s my job.” “Oh, sweetie.” Mom cupped my face in her palms. [...]“No one asked you to do that.” “You didn’t have to.” “I know.” She swallowed, her eyes shining. I hadn’t meant to make her cry, but hell. I was tired of lying, of hiding. “I wasn’t a good mom to you.” “Yes you were—” I interrupted quickly. “No, I wasn’t.” She laughed and the sound was wet. “I did my best. You know I did. But you deserved better. Maybe if I’d been a better mom, you would’ve learned that when things go to shit, other people are there to help. You wouldn’t be so hard on yourself. Maybe if I hadn’t failed so much myself, it would’ve left room for you to.” She stroked her thumbs over my cheeks and looked at me—really looked at me. I looked back. She was so familiar, and yet so different. [....]“I can’t be a totally horrible mom though. Not when somehow, despite everything I put you through, you still ended up perfect.”

Source: Bite Me! - You Know I Like It

Mother Hurt Family Brother Pressure Mistakes Axiety

“And everyone makes mistakes.” “Yeah but mine were really bad,” I admitted, my voice shaking. “And I’m still paying for them.” “Who?” “What do you mean?” I didn’t understand. “Who are you paying for them?”

Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To

Mistakes

Book:Hunt Me! I Crave the Chase

Source: Hunt Me! I Crave the Chase

“Because I’d known our relationship wasn’t healthy, yet I’d let him twist me up over and over just so I could feel gratitude on the days he decided to help me untangle the knots he’d tied. I was never enough for him. Never what he wanted. Always begging for scraps of attention, perpetually left empty.”

Hurt Bad Relationship Not Enough

“Imagining that hurt. Someone to love. To care for me openly. To be proud to parade me around. To touch and hold and pamper me. Someone who thought I was enough.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Hurt Anxiety Longing

“I’d never had the opportunity to be the kind of boyfriend I’d always wanted to be—too afraid of being too much, too afraid of scaring whoever I was dating off with my “intensity.” Too afraid of being rejected when they realized what was beneath my polished exterior.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Love Hurt Relationship

“This man before me was someone else entirely. Not the suit-wearing, pen-wielding, dildo-carrying maniac from the line at security, but a person who had been beaten badly—so badly that when he’d finally gotten back up again, his feet didn’t understand whether or not they were on solid ground.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Hurt Trauma

“I thought it was my fault. That I wasn’t worth the effort? Or maybe it was just normal to feel lonely, even when you were with someone.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Hurt Effort Loneliness Realtionship

“I stayed with him, Alex. Voluntarily. For a long time…I think I knew, deep down, it wasn’t right. But I stayed anyway. I stayed even though staying hurt. Because I hoped one day…I’d be…enough? That we’d be happy. That I could be what he wanted if I just folded myself small enough.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Hurt Trauma Past Relationship

“What did it say about me that my “practice boyfriend” was better at taking care of me than the man I’d thought would be my life partner? How had I never noticed? Scratch that—of course I had. I just…I suppose I hadn’t thought I deserved better. It was an awful sort of feeling, to come to terms with the fact that Brendon had been a horrible boyfriend when I’d put him on a pedestal for so long.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Hurt Regret Trauma Past Relationship

“And yet here I was—falling for his charm when I’d promised myself I was done with this. That I would never let another man control my emotions. That I’d never give someone power over me again. I didn’t know how to stop. I didn’t want to stop. Content to ride this train till the end, because for the first time in my life I was discovering what it felt like to be treated well. Which was…infuriating.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Hurt Anger Trauma Past Relationship

“It wasn’t even her I was upset with. It was the helplessness of the situation. All my life I’d felt like everyone else called the shots. They took and they took and they took and they took until the only pieces left of my self-worth were broken and splintered.”

Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions

Hurt Trauma Helplessness Self Worthm