“What if he doesn’t want me too? What if I implode my entire fucking life—” “Then we’ll pick up the pieces and build something new.” We’ll pick up the pieces.” FearFamilySupportPieces Book:Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions Source: Cloudy With a Chance of Bad Decisions
“I’ve never seen you act this way,” Mama said, sounding giddier than she should’ve. “I knew you could do it!” she declared, like seeing me in love was the most impressive thing I’d ever done. She said it in the same tone she’d told me she was proud of me when I’d graduated medical school. I wasn’t sure if I should be elated or offended.” FamilyTeasingFunny Moment Book:If Only In Our Dreams Source: If Only In Our Dreams
“We all make mistakes. But we never stop loving each other. That’s what family is for. Everyone messes up.” “I don’t,” I said—quickly. I could’ve left it at that. Let this go. Like it really was as simple as one stupid decision and not that I was a bad bet, myself. But I didn’t. Because for the first time in my life I was ready to let her see me. Really, see me. My walls came down. “I don’t.” I bit my lip. “Not when it comes to helping our family. I can’t. I can’t make mistakes. I—I can’t. I have to be here. To fill in the gaps. To fix things. I don’t get to fuck things up. I protect us. I provide. That’s my job.” “Oh, sweetie.” Mom cupped my face in her palms. [...]“No one asked you to do that.” “You didn’t have to.” “I know.” She swallowed, her eyes shining. I hadn’t meant to make her cry, but hell. I was tired of lying, of hiding. “I wasn’t a good mom to you.” “Yes you were—” I interrupted quickly. “No, I wasn’t.” She laughed and the sound was wet. “I did my best. You know I did. But you deserved better. Maybe if I’d been a better mom, you would’ve learned that when things go to shit, other people are there to help. You wouldn’t be so hard on yourself. Maybe if I hadn’t failed so much myself, it would’ve left room for you to.” She stroked her thumbs over my cheeks and looked at me—really looked at me. I looked back. She was so familiar, and yet so different. [....]“I can’t be a totally horrible mom though. Not when somehow, despite everything I put you through, you still ended up perfect.” MotherHurtFamilyBrotherPressureMistakesAxiety Book:Possess Me! - I Want You To Source: Possess Me! - I Want You To