“I think it's sad that we live in a world where men can steal and distribute and publish photos of women without their permission all over the Internet and even in print and make a lot of money doing so, but half naked photos that I took of myself are deemed "obscene."” ThinkingMenWorldHalfInternetStealingNakedPrintLots Of MoneyPermissionPublishObscene Author:Marie Calloway
“I feel like people think of me as someone who really believes in a "sex as empowerment" philosophy, like Sasha Grey or something, when actually I feel like I'm much more what a lot of liberal feminists would call "sex negative" than most women I know.” PeopleThinkingKnowsFeelsBelievePhilosophySexNegativeEmpowermentFeministGreyThink Of Me Author:Marie Calloway
“I think in general in my teens I had a lot of crushes on men on the Internet, most notably Momus since I was in my late teens. John Darnielle was also another big crush.” ThinkingMenBigsInternetLateCrushTeens Author:Marie Calloway
“I think in certain ways sex work has been romanticized. I can only speak from my experience, but what surprised me about escorting was how boring it mostly is. it seemed like an assembly line process of cleaning my apartment, dressing up, making awkward small talk, having mundane mechanical sex, making more awkward small talk, and then closing the door after them. There's also a lot of frustration and annoyance with it that I feel isn't discussed (a lot of flaky potential clients for instance.)” ThinkingWayFeelsHas BeensI CanCertainSpeakSexProcessLinesDoorsBoringInstanceFrustrationAwkwardApartmentClientsCleaningDressingsClosingMundaneAssemblyDressing UpAnnoyanceSex WorkSmall TalkAssembly LineEscorting Author:Marie Calloway
“Towards the end of it [working as an escort girl] I could feel myself drifting towards a liquor habit and I had a few minor mental breakdowns due to a what I felt like was a constant chipping away at my personhood (guys thinking I would have unprotected sex with them if they just paid me fifty more dollars, for instance) and a few abusive clients.” IfsThinkingFeelsEndsGuyGirlSexFeltHabitPaidConstantDollarsDuesInstanceFiftyMinorsClientsLiquorBreakdownDriftingAbusivePersonhoodChipping AwayMental Breakdown Author:Marie Calloway
“What i'm trying to get at is that to me nothing felt glamorous or exciting or sexually liberating about it. I also think the amount of money you can make escorting is exaggerated (it wasn't uncommon for me to see ads for escorts for 40-60$/hr where I live.)” ThinkingTryingFeltAmountExcitingAdsLiberatingGlamorousSexuallyExaggeratedUncommonEscorting Author:Marie Calloway
“I think I would have been a lot more miserable and discovered a lot less of things I liked if I hadn't had LiveJournal in high school. I think it's interesting how blogging seems to be shaping a new generation of writers. I feel like growing up with the Internet/blogging/other structures seems to be a reason for the similarities people see in Tao Lin's writing and other young writers, rather than direct.” PeopleIfsThinkingFeelsWritingHas BeensReasonSeemsSchoolYoungInterestingGrowing UpGrowingGenerationsInternetHigh SchoolDirectStructureMiserableTaoSimilarityBloggingNew GenerationYoung Writers Author:Marie Calloway
“I don't have much to say about honesty. All that I feel about it that people don't discuss as far as I know is how much effort it is to create truly honest writing, in my opinion. It requires a lot of thinking and effort.” PeopleThinkingKnowsFeelsWritingEffortOpinionHonestHonesty Author:Marie Calloway
“There's often times a big difference between what you actually thought/felt in a situation and what you think you thought/felt. You have to do a lot of work to make your thoughts/feelings possible to be understood by other people. It's very draining, though also cathartic.” PeopleThinkingFeelingsBigsFeltDifferencesSituationUnderstoodDrainingCathartic Author:Marie Calloway
“I admire narcissism in Momus and others who "own" it and use it as a way to explore ideas/themselves and also as a form of humor. I don't think of myself as narcissistic, but I'm definitely incredibly self absorbed. I guess I wonder if seeing the world through the lens of yourself is necessarily less valid than other ways of thinking/seeing though.” IfsThinkingWorldWayIdeasSelfUseFormWonderSeeingAdmireNarcissismLensesWay Of ThinkingNarcissisticSeeing The WorldSelf Absorbed Author:Marie Calloway
“I admire self-awareness more than probably any other quality, and I think in terms of what qualities are "good" in a person, it's a mostly subjective opinion, so I can't see a reason to think that self-absorption is inherently a bad thing.” ThinkingPersonsI CanSelfReasonTermQualityOpinionAwarenessSelf AwarenessAdmireBad ThingsSubjectiveAbsorptionSelf Absorption Author:Marie Calloway
“One thing about having mostly absent parents that I think was perhaps "good" for the development of my intellect/writing is that I was given almost total freedom to read/write/look at whatever I wanted. I wonder a lot about how my past experiences, particularly my negative childhood (home life and being severely bullied/ostracized throughout school) as formed my/my thoughts/my writing, though I should also note those things were far from the only thing that had an impact on me/my writing.” ThinkingShouldWritingLooksHomeWantedSchoolPastGivenParentWonderOne ThingChildhoodDevelopmentNegativeImpactNotesIntellectMy ThoughtsAbsentMy PastBulliedPast ExperiencesHome LifeFreedom To ReadChildhood Home Author:Marie Calloway
