“I drove all the way to Cape Disappointment but didn't have the energy to get out of the car. Rental. Blue Ford Focus. I had to stop in a semi-public place to pee on the ground. Just squatted there on the roadside. I don't know what's up with my bladder. I pee and then I have to pee and pee again. Instead of sightseeing I climbed into the back seat of the car and took a nap. I'm a little like Frank O'Hara without the handsome nose and penis and New York School and Larry Rivers. Paid for a day pass at Cape Disappointment thinking hard about that long drop from the lighthouse to the sea. Thought about going into the Ocean Medical Center for a checkup but how do I explain this restless search for beauty or relief?”
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