“At times I was desperate and could find no solace anywhere. Nothing seemed to work, and the weight of being trapped in my own body made it difficult to lift even a hand off the sheets.” PainDespairDesperateTrappedSolace Author:Lucy Grealy
“The second week of chemo was worse in that I knew what to expect. This presented a curious reversal of fear for me, because I already understood that with other types of pain the fear of not knowing about it usually brought about more suffering than the thing itself. This was different. This was dread. It wasn’t some unknown black thing hovering and threatening in the shadows; it had already revealed itself to me and, knowing that I knew I couldn’t escape, took its time stalking me. This was everything I ever needed to know about Fate.” Fate Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“Animals were both the lives I took care of and the lives who took care of me.” CareAnimal Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“Does something which exists on the edge have no true relevance to the stable center, or does it, by being on the edge, become a part of the edge and thus a part of the boundary, the definition which gives the whole its shape?” GivingDoeWholeShapesEdgesDefinitionsBoundariesStableRelevance Author:Lucy Grealy
“Sometimes the briefest moments capture us, force us to take them in, and demand that we live the rest of our lives in reference to them.” SometimesMomentsForceOur LivesDemandCapture Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“I used to think that once you really knew a thing, its truth would shine on forever. Now it's pretty obvious to me that more often than not the batteries fade, and sometimes what you knew even goes out with a bang when you try and call on it, just like a light bulb cracking off when you throw the switch.” ThinkingTryingSometimesLightUsedForeverShiningObviousFadesBangsBatteriesBulbsLight BulbShine On Author:Lucy Grealy
“Part of the job of being human is to consistently underestimate our effect on other people.” PeopleHumansJobsEffectsConsistentlyBeing HumanUnderestimate Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“Beauty, as defined by society at large, seemed to be only about who was best at looking like everyone else.” Defined Author:Lucy Grealy
“Through [my friends] I discovered what it was to love people. There was an art to it...which was not really all that different from the love that is necessary in the making of art. It required the effort of always seeing them for themselves and not as I wished them to be.” PeopleArtDifferentEffortSeeingMy Friends Author:Lucy Grealy
“The general plot of life is sometimes shaped by the different ways genuine intelligence combines with equally genuine ignorance.” WayDifferentSometimesLife IsIgnoranceGenuineDifferent WaysPlot Author:Lucy Grealy
“Partly I was honing my self-consciousness into a torture device, sharp and efficient enough to last me the rest of my life.” SelfEnoughLastsConsciousnessTortureDevicesEfficientSelf ConsciousnessHoning Author:Lucy Grealy
“This singularity of meaning--I was my face, I was ugliness--though sometimes unbearable, also offered a possible point of escape. It became the launching pad from which to lift off, the one immediately recognizable place to point to when asked what was wrong with my life. Everything led to it, everything receded from it--my face as personal vanishing point.” SometimesFacesLiftsUglinessUnbearablePadsSingularityVanishingLaunchingVanishing Point Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“When I tried to imagine being beautiful, I could only imagine living without the perpetual fear of being alone, without the great burden of isolation, which is what feeling ugly felt like.” FeelingsBeautifulFeltImagineBurdenUglyIsolationPerpetualBeing BeautifulFear Of Being Alone Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“Anxiety and anticipation, I was to learn, are the essential ingredients in suffering from pain, as opposed to feeling pain pure and simple.” FeelingsPainSufferingSimplePureEssentialsAnxietyIngredientsAnticipationFeeling Pain Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“I treated despair in terms of hierarchy: if there was a more important pain in the world, it meant my own was negated. I thought I simply had to accept the fact that I was ugly, and that to feel despair about it was simply wrong.” IfsWorldFeelsImportantFactsPainTermMy OwnAcceptingDespairUglyTreatedHierarchy Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“I used to think truth was eternal, that once I knew, once I saw, it would be with me forever, a constant by which everything else could be measured. I know now that this isn’t so, that most truths are inherently unretainable, that we have to work hard all our lives to remember the most basic things.” ThinkingKnowsHardWisdomWould BeTruthRememberUsedForeverKnowingSawsOur LivesSeeingHard WorkEternalConstantInherentMeasurementBasicsLife LearningBasic Things Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“I spent five years of my life being treated for cancer, but since then I've spent fifteen years being treated for nothing other than looking different from everyone else. It was the pain from that, from feeling ugly, that I always viewed as the great tragedy of my life. The fact that I had cancer seemed minor in comparison.” YearsDifferentFactsFeelingsPainFiveTragedyCancerUglyTreatedFive YearsComparisonMinorsFifteenFifteen YearsGreat Tragedy Author:Lucy Grealy
“While our bodies move ever forward on the time line, our minds continuously trace backward, seeking shape and meaning as deftly as any arrow seeking its mark” MindBodyMovingLinesShapesMarkSeekingArrows Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“I began a lifelong affair with nostalgia, with only the vaguest notions of what I was nostalgic for.” NotionAffairNostalgiaLifelongNostalgic Book:Autobiography of a Face Source: Autobiography of a Face
“All narratives, even the confusing, are implicitly hopeful; they speak of a world that can be ordered, and thus understood.” WorldSpeakUnderstoodNarrativeHopefulConfusing Author:Lucy Grealy