“Choose a grateful heart, even when facing hard times right now. Be thankful for the good times and be hopeful for the better ones. Be thankful anyhow, and trust in God’s plan. Things will eventually work out.”
Source: The Gift of Thanksgiving
“Recovery doesn't mean putting your life on hold. Recovery means holding on so you can live your best life.”
“Don’t fear change; only by letting go of the good can you embrace the better.”
Source: The Light in the Heart
“As I searched for food perfection, and as I gained weight, I began to realize that the race for perfection in anything was the path to destruction.”
Source: Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder That Fed It
“No one could see the thoughts when the body looked normal to them. The voice wanted it to just be the two of us. It wanted to hide. If no one saw it, then no one would believe me.
No one would ask.”
Source: Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder That Fed It
“And so, as if signing up for some new religion or entering into some cult, I indoctrinated myself as a member—I was and would be, Anorexic.
I carried shame around this decision for a long time. As if in the choosing, I wasn’t qualified for actual sickness. That because I chose Anorexia, it was not a disease I fell ill to. That because I decided to stop eating, it was my fault, my responsibility, and a disgrace to the real people suffering from Eating Disorders that I even considered myself to be one of them.
So even in my illness, I allowed myself to believe I wasn’t ill. I convinced myself it was temporary—a two-week free trial that I would cancel before getting charged. I would use and absorb the skills of Anorexic-others, then get out as soon as I’d reached my ideal weight.
This, I later learned, was a lie my Eating Disorder would tell me for the rest of my life.”
Source: Where the River Flows: A memoir of loss, love & life with an Eating Disorder
“As time went on, the line between my Eating Disorder and my self became so blurred that I could not see my Eating Disorder as something separate from me. I lost touch of what it felt like or looked like to eat “normally.” I didn’t know what hunger felt like—because I only knew what hunger felt like. I didn’t know what feeling satisfied felt like, because I only knew what full beyond physical comfort felt like. I had no idea what other people ate or didn’t eat, how often or when, how much or in what combination. My body became such a confusing place to live inside, and I often didn’t recognize it as my own.”
Source: Where the River Flows: A memoir of loss, love & life with an Eating Disorder
“En dat was precies de vruchtbare bodem die mijn eetstoornis nodig had om zich te beginnen ontwikkelen. Ik was extreem onzeker, had ernstig trauma doorstaan, vergeleek mezelf continu met mijn klasgenoten, had last van een verlammende mate van perfectionisme, had gaandeweg een intense zelfhaat ontwikkeld en walgde van mijn eigen lichaam. Niet lang daarna begon ik mijn lunch op school weg te gooien. Weer wat later stak ik voor de eerste keer mijn vinger in mijn keel. En zo evolueerde mijn eetprobleem tot een eetstoornis, die elke dag een beetje meer grip op me kreeg.”
“Newbies tend to demean one another.”
Source: Betelgeuse Incident: Insiden Bait Al-Jauza
“Before you can be a professional, you must first be a beginner.”
Source: Glass Eyes: A Photographers Journey