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“I was seeing in these awkward composites my own liminal self. The two sides of me that were slammed together against their will, that refused to mix. I was a failed hybrid, made up of unalloyed selves. My Russian mother who regretted marrying my Sudanese father. My African father who came to hate his white wife. My atheist mother who blotted out my Muslim heritage. My Arab father who gave me up to Europe without a fight. I was the freak. I had been told so and I had been taught so and I had chewed on this verdict to the extent that, no matter what, I could never purge myself of it entirely.”

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Book:The Kindness of Enemies
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Leila Aboulela
Leila Aboulela

Leila Aboulela is a British novelist and essayist born in 1964. Her works often explore themes of immigration, identity, and religious faith, deeply influenced by East African and Islamic cultures. more

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