“Not wanting the girls to endure the shame of a crazy mother, I spent my days acting as normal as possible. I walked through life, an actor in a Leave it to Beaver episode, determined to disguise all clues of my real condition until... well, until I could find an appropriate moment to do away with myself." [...] "Yet even as my depression spiraled into ever more precarious territory, I retained an uncanny ability to disguise my true mental condition from everyone except Tom. He was my sole source of strength and he never stopped encouraging me.” ActingEmotionDespairDepressionMental HealthMental IllnessPretendingDisguiseHopelessnessDissociative Identity DisorderMultiple Personality DisorderDaughtersDepressiveMpdSuicidalitySevere DepressionSuicidehopeless Book:Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse Source: Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse