“She closes her eyes, and I can see the moisture. She’s deep-breathing again, and I notice her hands are clutched around the opposing wrists, nails digging in deep, hard, scratching. Pain to replace pain.” PainGriefCuttingGuiltHeartacheFallingSelf InjuryColtonFalling Into YouJasinda WilderNellSiScratching Book:Falling Into You Source: Falling Into You
“The door slams in response, and I laugh. I'm glad she can laugh. It means she really is coping. I know she’s internalizing a lot, though. Putting on a show for me. She’ll have new scars on her wrists soon.” GriefCuttingLaughCopingScarsFallingShowColtonFalling Into YouJasinda WilderNellFrontInternalizingCuts Book:Falling Into You Source: Falling Into You
“It wasn't supposed to. It was just supposed to stop you from hurting yourself.” “It helps—” “No it doesn't. It just pushes it away temporarily. Just like the booze.” “But I need—” “You need to let yourself feel. Feel it, own it. Then move on.” “You make it sound so easy.” Bitterness drips from each syllable. “It’s not. It’s the fucking hardest thing a person can do.” I smooth a damp strand out of her face and away from my mouth. “It’s the hardest fucking thing. It’s why we drink and do drugs and fight. It’s why I play music and build engines.” FightingGriefMusicCuttingDrinkingWordsReliefBitternessFeelingFeelCopingFallingHurtingColtonFalling Into YouCopeJasinda WilderNell Book:Falling Into You Source: Falling Into You
“Let…it…go,” he whispers, his voice a fierce, harsh sound in my hair. “No. No!” The last word is screamed. “You have to. You can’t bleed it out. You can’t keep pretending, drinking it down.” PainGriefCuttingSorrowDrinkingFavouriteLet It GoFallingFavoriteCutBleedColtonFalling Into YouJasinda WilderNell Book:Falling Into You Source: Falling Into You
“There’s no magical healing in this. I won’t wake up tomorrow fixed and joyful. I’ll still hurt and grieve. But moments like this, with Colton? They make it all bearable. He doesn't fix me, doesn't heal me. He just makes life worthwhile. He helps me remember to breathe, shows me how to smile again. He kisses me, and I can forget pain, forget the urges I still have to cut for the pain that erases the emotions.” LifePainHurtForgetCuttingSweetReliefUrgesEscapeFallingSelf HarmBearableFixGrieveColtonFalling Into YouJasinda WilderNellSiCutter Book:Falling Into You Source: Falling Into You
