“For a while, I just sat there in that position, but eventually I gave up and was about to turn the lights off when it hit me. I knew what was stuck in my head. A phrase. Reaching for my desk, I grabbed the new notebook and pencil that were sitting by the edge and flipped the cover, lying flat on my back. Steadying the spine of the notebook with my palm, I took the pencil to the first blank page and wrote the words: “All the lovers in the night.” The phrase had appeared out of nowhere. Through the faint light of the room, I looked over the words, which came together in the strangest way. On the one hand, they felt new to me, like something I’d never heard or seen before, though I also felt like maybe I had read them somewhere, in the title of a movie or a song, which meant it had emerged from someplace inside of me. Hard to say. Seeing my handwriting under the light, I realized that this was the first time I’d written something without having a specific purpose, not a comment in somebody else’s manuscript or galley, but my own words on a blank sheet of paper. I had no clue what to do with these words, no idea what they were for, or what they meant, but I stared at them and felt them reach my heart and linger there.” Emotion Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“Without school, I could get by without seeing anyone or being seen by anyone. It was like being a piece of furniture in a room that nobody uses. I can't express how safe it felt never being seen.” SchoolSadBullying Book:Heaven Source: Heaven
“…cuando hablamos, se entienden las palabras, ¿verdad? Pero, en realidad, muchas veces no pasa lo mismo con lo que queremos decir. Las palabras se entienden, pero el contenido no. Muchos problemas nacen de ahí. Nosotros vivimos en un mundo en que se entienden las palabras, pero no lo que decimos. Todos nosotros.” Facts Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“Midoriko me miró a los ojos mientras señalaba la amplia superficie, al otro lado de la ventana, teñida de color violeta y, luego, dirigió de nuevo los ojos hacia fuera. Aquel cielo que iba extendiéndose hacia la nostalgia, hacia lo que aún no habíamos vivido, estaba moteado de retazos de nubes como huellas de las yemas de los dedos. A través de los resquicios, se vertía una luz tenue que dibujaba suavemente los contornos de las nubes con matices de color violeta, rosado y azul oscuro. Parecía que si aguzabas la vista, podías ver el viento que soplaba en lo alto del cielo y que, si alargabas la mano, podías acariciar la película que envolvía el mundo. El cielo reflejaba los colores como si fuera una melodía que no podrá ser interpretada una segunda vez.” Inspirational Quotes Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“I knew that it was cruel to be so optimistic, but, in my solitude, I couldn't resist the urge and spent entire days basking in idiotic fantasies, sometimes verging on prayer.” Optimism Book:Heaven Source: Heaven
“You think about how other people feel. You're so kind. It makes sense. Because we're always in pain, we know exactly what it means to hurt somebody else.” PainKindnessBullying Book:Heaven Source: Heaven
“It feels like going home, same as always, and opening the door to find all these people there: someone who feels like an old friend even though we’ve never met, someone who means the world to me but I can never see again, somebody crying, somebody laughing, people from far away—and I’m there, too. We don’t talk about anything special, but we’re all there, just sharing time.” LoveHomeCommunityInternationalTranslations Author:Mieko Kawakami
“Why does the night have to be so beautiful? As I walk through the night, I remember what Mitsusuka said to me. "Because at night, only half the world remains.” Loneliness Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“Is this my life? I’m glad that I can write I’m thankful for this life And all the good it’s given me But can I live like this forever? Alone Can I really be alone like this? Forever? I can’t take it — actually that’s not true, that’s a lie I’m fine on my own It’s fine, but what about you Am I really okay Not knowing you? What if I regret it? My child, unlike any other, Can I really say I’m okay Never knowing you?” ChildrenLonelinessMotherhood Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“Beauty meant that you were good. And being good meant being happy. Happiness can be defined all kinds of ways, but human beings, consciously or unconsciously, are always pulling for their own version of happiness. Even people who want to die see death as a kind of solace, and view ending their lives as the only way to make it there. Happiness is the base unit of consciousness, our single greatest motivator. Saying "I just want to be happy" trumps any other explanation. But who knows. Maybe Makiko had a more specific reason, not just some vague idea of how to make herself happy.” HappinessBeautyMieko KawakamiBreasts And Eggs Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“¿No te parece extraño que dejes de poder ver a alguien, que desaparezca de pronto, solo porque haya muerto?” Death Of A Loved OneDeath Quotes Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“I didn’t choose any of this. Not my family, not my house, not my parents, not my school. This town is overflowing with things I never wanted. But everyone goes around with blank expressions on their faces, like they’re wearing matching masks or something. It freaks me out. People here confuse boredom and stagnation with peace and safety.” Solitude Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“Now that the light was gone, I closed my eyes softly, knowing it would only be a short time until the light came back in the morning.” LoveSolitudeAlltheloversinthenight Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“What is dying anyway? I let this impossible question fill the darkness of my bedroom. I thought about how somebody was always dying somewhere, at any given moment. This isn’t a fable or a joke or an abstract idea. People are always dying. It’s a perfect truth. No matter how we live our lives, we all die sooner or later. In which case, living is really just waiting to die. And if that’s true, why bother living at all? Why was I even alive? I made myself crazy, tossing and turning, hyperventilat- ing. Then it hit me: dying is just like sleeping. You only know you’re sleeping when you wake up the next day, but if morn- ing never comes, you sleep forever. That must be what death is like. When someone dies, they don’t even know they’re dead. Because they never see it happen, nobody ever really dies. This hit me like a sucker punch.” Death Book:Heaven Source: Heaven
“The sky reached into the past and into obscurity, streaked with strips of cloud like marks left by a tired finger. The light leaking between the clouds was touched with purples, gentle reds and heavy blues. If you looked far up enough, you could see the wind blowing. It almost felt as if we could touch this layer wrapped around the world, if we just stuck out our hands. It showed its colors like a melody that could never be repeated.” SkySunset Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“How is it possible I knew about sperm first? That doesn’t seem fair.” HumorFeminismIrony Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“Simply by being yellow, they held a special power, giving us courage and comfort.” FictionColorHopefulSisterhoodJapanese Literature Book:Sisters in Yellow Source: Sisters in Yellow
“Maybe the girls were right about me having no place else to go, about there being nothing fun about my life.” ShynessEmoMinding Your Own Business Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“It only took me a couple of hours to realise that she was a woman of talents beyond anything I could imagine - even though I was a stranger to such talents myself.” Mieko KawakamiAll The Lovers In The Night Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“I could see people all around me, but I almost felt like nobody could see me. I heard a train go by, rumbling down the tracks, drawing a thick line between the world and my experience. I was getting cold again.” Mieko KawakamiBreasts And Eggs Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“When it comes to love, the only weapon that we've got is our emotions, right? So what can you do when your foundation's all messed up? If that's the state you're in, there's no way you can ever get serious with anybody.” Love Quotes Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“The thing about results - whether or not something turns out well - is that it's mostly about luck. Things like that can change. You can make people believe whatever you want. You can fool them like it's nothing. But you can't fool yourself, not really. That's why what matters is how you think about your work in your lifetime, how much you respect it, how hard you're trying.” SuccessHonestyLuck Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“How many summers had I been alive? The obvious answer was as many summers as my age; but for some reason I felt the presence of another number, a different, realer number somewhere out there in the world. I thought about this as I gazed into the summer glare.” Time Book:Breasts and Eggs Source: Breasts and Eggs
“The more I looked at it, the less it seemed like something for a house. More like a tiny gravestone.” Heaven Book:Heaven Source: Heaven
“The light at night is special because the overwhelming light of day has left us, and the remaining half draws on everything it has to keep the world around us bright.” LightNightNight Sky Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night
“Why does the night have to be so beautiful? As I walked through the night, I remember what Mitsutsuka said to me. "Because at night, only half the world remains." I count the lights. All the lights of the night. The red light at the intersection, trembling as if wet, even though it isn't raining. Streetlight after streetlight. Taillights trailing off into the distance. The soft glow of the windows. Phones in the hands of people just arriving home, and people just about to go somewhere. Why is the night so beautiful? Why does it shine the way it does? Why is the night made up entirely of light? The music flows from the earphones filling my ears, filling me it becomes everything. A lullaby. A gorgeous piano lullaby. What a wonderful piece of music. It really is. It's my favorite piece by Chopin. Did you like it too, Fuyuko? Yeah. It's like the night is breathing. Like the sound of melted light. (The light at night is special because the overwhelming light of day has left us, and the remaining half draws on everything it has to keep the world around us bright.) You're right, Mitsutsuka. It isn't anything, but it's so beautiful that I could cry.” Light Book:All the Lovers in the Night Source: All the Lovers in the Night