“Deception' is the word I most associate with anorexia and the treachery which comes from falsehood. The illness appears inviting. It would seem to offer something to those unwary or unlucky enough to suffer from it - friendship, a get-out, or a haven - when, in fact, it is a trap.” IllnessMental IllnessDeceptionFalsehoodEscapeSelf DeceptionAnorexiaEating DisorderTreacheryTrapAnorexia NervosaAnoreticFalse FriendHaveb Book:To Die For Source: To Die For
“her eyes are unfathomable to me, hostile, even, as if she had removed herself to a place where I cannot reach her - somewhere I cannot know.” Mental IllnessEmotional PainAnorexiaEating DisorderMiles AwayEmotional DistanceEmotional BarriersEmotional Disengagement Book:To Die For Source: To Die For
“Emma cites the structure of the [Eating Disorder] Unit as being important to her decision to disengage from her illness, and the fact that she felt safe in it, and cared for. 'It was the first time I'd been in an environment where I felt comfortabe with all the people around me. I felt "I can be here and I can talk to anybody" and that was something that had been missing from my life'.” AnorexiaEating DisorderBulimiaMental HospitalPsychiatric HospitalsAnorexia RecoveryBulimia RecoveryFeeling SafeEating Disorder CausesPsychiatric Unit Book:To Die For Source: To Die For
“I think maybe they come out into the grounds in nightwear. But no, in typical anorexic stype they have read the fashion magazines literally. This is their version of thin girls in strappy clothes. The girl in the petticoat talks to me, as Emma has done on occsasion, in a rather grand style, as if she is a 'lady' of some substance and I a visiting guest. Do they chat much about clothes? I ask Emma in the car. She shakes her head. So, does she, Emma, see the difference between underwear or nightwear and 'going out' clothes? 'Yes,' she says, her voices strained again. 'But it's one of the things you don't know properly when you're ill and confused. You see these pictures and the people in the magazines are real for you.” RealityMental IllnessAnorexiaAnorexia NervosaAnorexicFashion Magazine Book:To Die For Source: To Die For
“Locking away appetite, anger, the fullness of life, anorexia helps cover up whatever struggles inside. With its controlling bouts of bingeing and starvation, of trance and half-life, it becomes a shield to fend off despair and longing and what most of us would see as ordinary responsible behavior.” Mental IllnessAnorexiaEating DisorderBinge EatingUnhealthy Coping Book:To Die For Source: To Die For
“I was a very lonely child and it's funny but the first word that comes to my head is "starved". I felt starved of affection, starved of love and I felt that it wasn't OK to ask for it. Maybe there was a sense that if I deserved it, it would be there. There must be something I'd done which meant I didn't deserve it.” StarvingAnorexiaEating DisorderUnlovedLack Of LoveEmotional NeglectUnmet NeedsSelf BlameStarved Book:To Die For Source: To Die For