“I honestly didn't believe I could bear any more suffering. I was convinced that the child within me was just too young to endure all this, much less understand it. She just wanted to be normal. But another part of me knew that to become normal, all the pieces of this puzzle had to become conscious. p164” ConsciousnessAwarenessPersonalityPresenceDissociative Identity DisorderDissociationMultiplicityRitual AbuseSatanic Ritual AbuseDissociativeDerealizationMultiple Personality Book:Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse Source: Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse
“Denial returned, like a nagging cough you can never quite shake. Actually, it was always close at hand, and even though "satanic ritual abuse" did describe what had happened to me when I was a child. the concept was so foreign and so horrific that some part of me still wanted to stay in denial. Devil worship dominated my childhood. That was undeniable, even if it was still nearly impossible to contemplate. Both of my parents and any number of their friends, as well as "respected" members of our community, had worshipped Satan. I pushed the notion aside with all the power I could muster. I kept thinking to myself that it was ridiculous and impossible. p157” ConsciousnessAwarenessPersonalityDevilDenialSatanChild AbusePresenceDissociative Identity DisorderDissociationMultiplicityHorrificRitual AbuseSatanic Ritual AbuseDissociativeDerealizationMultiple PersonalityDevil Worship Book:Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse Source: Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse
“This new co-consciousness brought me to a state of awareness in which my core personality was directly able to experience "her" personality. Being co-conscious with her, he explained, would stop me from experiencing the feeling of leaving my body or dissociating.” AwarenessPersonalityPresenceDissociative Identity DisorderDissociationMultiplicityRitual AbuseSatanic Ritual AbuseDissociativeDerealizationMultiple PersonalityConsciosness Book:Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse Source: Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse