“Denial returned, like a nagging cough you can never quite shake. Actually, it was always close at hand, and even though "satanic ritual abuse" did describe what had happened to me when I was a child. the concept was so foreign and so horrific that some part of me still wanted to stay in denial. Devil worship dominated my childhood. That was undeniable, even if it was still nearly impossible to contemplate. Both of my parents and any number of their friends, as well as "respected" members of our community, had worshipped Satan. I pushed the notion aside with all the power I could muster. I kept thinking to myself that it was ridiculous and impossible. p157” ConsciousnessAwarenessPersonalityDevilDenialSatanChild AbusePresenceDissociative Identity DisorderDissociationMultiplicityHorrificRitual AbuseSatanic Ritual AbuseDissociativeDerealizationMultiple PersonalityDevil Worship Book:Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse Source: Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse
“I'm back in the basement of the Ascension Catholic Church, Francisco. And Little Suzie is here. She's lying on an alter, and they're hurting her. The bastards. They're hurting her. There is blood all over the place. There are candles burning and people chanting." I could hardly believe what I was seeing and I cried out, "What is this? I don't understand. What the hell is this?" "Ask your unconscious mind to tell you, Suzie," he responded, ever so gently. "Ask." I did ask. And the answer swept over me with a force so strong that I felt as if I had been knocked backward. "Lord! Oh, Lord. This is satanic ritual abuse, Francisco. That's what this is! That's what this is!" I screamed. "Satanic ritual abuse. And they're using Little Suzie as part of their goddamned ritual. p150” PersonalityAbuseMemoryTraumaRitualChild AbuseDissociative Identity DisorderDissociationRitual AbuseSatanic Ritual AbuseDissociativeMultiple Personality Book:Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse Source: Wholeness: My Healing Journey from Ritual Abuse