“But maybe his father was right. Maybe what had happened in 1918 could never happen again. "U.S. Reveals Detailed Flu Disaster Plans." Cole decided to make this the topic for his research report. Plans for manufacturing and distributing vaccines and other medications. Plans to quarantine the sick and to call up extra doctors and nurses and to replace absent workers with retired workers so that businesses wouldn't have to shut down. Plans to keep public transportation and electricity and telecommunications and other vital services operating and food and water and other necessities from running out. Plans to mobilize troops (for Cole this was the only exciting part) in the event of mass panic or violence. One day he would ask Pastor Wyatt why, despite all these plans, everything had gone so wrong. "Son, that is just the thing. That is what people did not--and still do not--get. There is no way you can count on the government, even if it's a very good government. The government isn't going to save you, it isn't going to save anyone. There's no way you can count on other people in a situation like we had. People afraid of losing their lives--or, Lord knows, even just their toys--they'll panic. Even fine, decent Christian folk--you can never know for sure what they'll do next. So I say, love your neighbor, help your fellow man all you can, but don't ever count on any other human being. Count on God." What Cole didn't know was that most of the plans he read about that night would have been sufficient only for an emergency lasting a few weeks.” GodTrustIllnessPreparationPandemicEmergenciesGovernmentsEmergency Preparation Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“Do everything you can to get men to look at you, and when they do, pretend they don't exist. Because only a slut looks back. Is that perfectly clear? Early lesson on the female condition.” WomenFeminismGirlsFemalesSluts Book:A Feather on the Breath of God Source: A Feather on the Breath of God
“I like that, well before T.S. Eliot expressed himself on the matter, Samuel Butler stated that the severest test of the imagination was naming a cat.” NamesImaginationCatsPetsNaming Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“Rather than write about what you know, you told us, write about what you see. Assume that you know very little and that you'll never know much until you learn how to see.” WritingKnowledgeKnowingSeeingObservation Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“The school stank of Lysol, and several times a day they all had to line up and wash their hands. Clean hands save lives was the message being hammered into them. When it came to spreading infection, they were informed, they themselves--school kids--were the biggest culprits. Even if you weren't sick yourself, you could shed germs and make other people sick. Cole was struck by the word shed. The idea that he could shed invisible germs the way Sadie shed dog hairs was awesome to him. He pictured the germs as strands of hair with legs like centipedes, invisible but crawling everywhere. Minibottles of sanitizer were distributed for use when soap and water weren't available. Everyone was supposed to receive a new bottle each day, but the supply ran out quickly--not just at school but all over. Among teachers this actually brought relief, because the white, slightly sticky lotion was so like something else that some kids couldn't resist. Gobs started appearing on chairs, on the backs of girls' jeans, or even in their hair, and one boy caused an uproar by squirting it all over his face. Never Sneeze into Your Hand, read signs posted everywhere. And: Keep Your Hands to Yourself (these signs had actually been there before but now had a double meaning). If you had to sneeze, you should do it into a tissue. If you didn't have a tissue, you should use the crook of your arm. "But that's vomitous," squealed Norris (one of the two whispering blondes). These rules were like a lot of other school rules: nobody paid much attention to them. Some school employees started wearing rubber gloves. Cafeteria servers, who already wore gloves, started wearing surgical masks as well. Cole lost his appetite. He couldn't stop thinking about hospitals. Flesh being cut open, flesh being sewn up. How could you tell if you had the flu? The symptoms were listed on the board in every room: Fever. Aches. Chills. Dry cough. What must you do if you had these symptoms? YOU MUST STAY HOME.” SchoolIllnessPandemicFluHygiene Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“Like many women, she would always find it easier to feel for a male (except, of course, her husband, against whom she bore innumerable, lifelong, deadly grudges) than for any female.” MenWomenMisogynyGrudgesGender Relations Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“And I can't say how many stories I now see that deal seriously with the question of how we'd all be better off in a world without men.” MenStoriesWomenPrejudiceGender Relationships Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“Rose, who teaches college, said, I had a student who wrote in a paper that she'd have a different attitude toward mortality if she'd been born male, because then, quote, I would've always gotten what I wanted in life. When I pointed out that this wasn't true, that it was not just hyperbolic but completely false, she doubled down. But men have all the power, she kept saying.” MenWomenPowerGender Relations Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“What does it mean, said Rose, our stubborn Rose, to say that the world would be better off without men? Women are less violent, but what about all the other wicked traits, like racism and greed and malignant narcissism? There'd still be plenty of that. Oh, I don't know, said Camellia. Just to have less violence--less warmongering, less bloodshed, less crime--wouldn't that be grand?” MenWarWomenViolenceCrimeRacismGenderNarcissismGender RelationsGender Traits Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“A world without men would hardly be a utopia. There'd still be some kind of hierarchy, that's inevitable. There'd still be one group trying to dominate everyone else, because that's human nature. There'd still be plenty of abused children. On the other hand, I can't quite picture Orwell's "boot stamping on a human face forever" on a female foot.” MenWomenGenderDominationHierarchyGeorge Orwell Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“In a sea of fragile young women she stood out as the one most likely to drown.” WomenYoung WomenDrowningFragility Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“I believe people are more good than bad. When Obama said this he was only repeating what many have said before. Another version: I believe there are more good people in the world than bad people. What does not follow, though, is that, thanks to the numbers, the good will prevail. What cannot be left out of account is that, under certain circumstances, the bad can get the good to act badly, and furthermore, in order to achieve certain goals--victory in wartime, for example--getting the good to act badly rises to the level of a necessity.” PeopleHumansGoodnessBadnessGood Vs Evil Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“I have this fear. I am so myopic that, without glasses, the hand I see at the end of my arm is blurred. What if I were to find myself one day in some bad place--in a prison or some kind of detention camp, say, or forced to flee for my life--and then somehow I lost my glasses, or they got broken or taken away? What then?” FearVisionGlassesEyeglassesMyopiaBlurry Vision Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“Fears of the future roiled me--not just the big ones I shared with everyone else, like the fear of contracting the virus and perhaps even dying, or of the consequences of our increasingly dark and chaotic politics--but petty ones inspired by the most mundane aspects of my life. I had lost all confidence in myself to accomplish ordinary tasks. I would lie in bed, obsessing about my to-do list, watching helplessly as--thanks to the many obstacles my mind kept generating--it twisted into a list of the not-doable.” FearFutureAnxietyImpotenceLack Of Confidence Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“Beware irony, ignore criticism, look to what is simple, study the small and humble things of the world, do what is difficult precisely because it is difficult, do not search for answers but rather love the questions, do not run away from sadness or depression for these might be the very conditions necessary to your work. Seek solitude, above all seek solitude." ​” Life Philosophy Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“A riddle: If it was true what she said, that she expected nothing from her husband, why was she forever seething with disappointment?” WomenMarriageExpectationsDisappointmentSpousesHusbandsContradictions Book:A Feather on the Breath of God Source: A Feather on the Breath of God
“I don't know who it was, but someone, maybe or maybe not Henry James, said that there are two kinds of people in the world: those who upon seeing someone else suffering think, That could happen to me, and those who think, That will never happen to me. The first kind of people help us to endure, the second kind make life hell.” SufferingHumanity Book:What Are You Going Through Source: What Are You Going Through
“You have to learn from experience what a character in a story by Edna O'Brien states: that the reason love is so painful is that it always amounts to two people wanting more than two people can give.” LovePainExperienceFutility Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“To draw me out, the therapist asks what I did for the holidays. When I tell him he says gently (he says everything gently), Sounds like that's one of the ways your loss has affected you: not wanting to be with other people. Hating to be with other people, I don't say. Terrified of being with other people.” DeathLossGriefLonelinessSolitudeMourningIsolation Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“They don't read, and they can't write to save their lives. They've never heard of most of the presidents of the United States, they think America won the war in Vietnam, they think Prohibition was a law that made it illegal to own slaves. That was Cole's father, fuming about his students. Cole suspects at least some of this could also be said about Tracy. And it's not just what they don't know, it's what they don't want to know. Tracy is what his father would call intellectually lazy.” KnowledgeLearningTeachingStudentsIgnoranceIntellectualism Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“Pastor Wyatt still shakes hands with people. He pays no attention to the warning to switch to the elbow bump. Cole remembers learning about this while he was still in regular school. Public health officials were trying to get people to switch because touching elbows did not spread infection the way touching hands did. Cole knows there are many people who have switched, but he sees the elbow bump only when he is around strangers. The people he sees every day make fun of the elbow bump. They shake hands and they hug one another, even through Pastor Wyatt says the disease that spared them all this time around is neither the last nor the worst of its kind. Other plagues are coming, he says, smiling. And he thinks they will be here soon.” HealthDiseaseIllnessPandemicHealthy HabitsHygieneElbow Bump Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“People must learn that shaking another person's hand is not a friendly thing to do. It is not a friendly thing to put other people at risk for infectious diseases." She and several other people were shown demonstrating the elbow bump, and the auditorium got raucous again. "We must also consider limiting the use of coins and paper money. For this, too, may cause diseases to spread. We must use technology and human ingenuity to develop ways so that, in their daily public transactions, people touch one another as little as possible. Ideally, we also want to touch as few buttons and handles and knobs as possible.” HealthSafetyPandemicHygieneHandshakesElbow Bump Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“First they warn everyone to wear a mask. Then we find out unless it's a special kind of mask it's not going to protect you at all." "It's not just a question of beds. There's not enough linen, not enough gloves, gowns, hypodermic needles, disinfectant, meds, you name it. Not enough ambulances, not enough ventilators or other equipment. Hospitals are even running out of food." "It's not like every other bad thing stopped happening to make room for the flu. People are still getting cancer and having heart attacks and strokes and road accidents. The idea that we could handle any kind of surge on top of that--whoever's fantasy that was, it was never going to happen." "The retired workers they were depending on to take over for the workers out sick? Very few of those people ever showed. The volunteer doctors and nurses and the other helping hands--they aren't showing up, either. It's not like 9/11. There aren't any heroes rushing toward the danger. The danger is everywhere, and everyone's running scared." "Let's face it, this is America. Anything that's bad for business, people don't want to hear. When it comes to money or doing the right thing, most people are going to choose money. Close up shop for months till they can make a new vaccine? How many businesses would still be alive after that?" "This disaster proves what some of us have been saying about America all along: everything is broken.” AmericaFearMoneyIllnessPandemicMasksBusinessesVolunteersShortagesMask Mandates Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“Like many who lack patience dealing with other humans, when it comes to animals, I have all the time in the world.” HumansPatienceAnimals Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“Strays is what a writer I recently read calls those who, for one reason or another, and despite whatever they might have wanted earlier in life, never really become a part of life, not in the way most people do. They may have serious relationships, they may have friends, even a sizable circle, they may spend large portions of their time in the company of others. But they never marry and they never have children. On holidays, they join some family or other group. This goes on year after year, until they finally find it in themselves to admit that they'd really rather just stay home. But you must see a lot of people like that, I say to the therapist. Actually, he says, I don't.” IsolationSinglesIntrovertsEccentricsStrays Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“Who doesn't know that the dog is the epitome of devotion? But it's this devotion to humans, so instinctual that it's given freely even to persons who are unworthy of it, that has made me prefer cats. Give me a pet that can get along without me.” DevotionSelf RelianceDogsCatsPets Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“Anthropomorphism, I've decided, is inescapable, and though I might try to hide it I no longer fight it.” LoveWritingDeathSuicideGrievingDogs Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“He was always a crybaby--not in the sense of a whiner, but one of those kids who's always in tears.” ChildrenTearsCryingCrybabies Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“His father used to accuse his mother of not being able to let anything go. She needed to learn to put the past behind her, instead of dwelling on what couldn't be changed. "Don't be like your mother," he warned Cole, "unless you want to be depressed.” PastLetting GoDepressionRuminationDwelling On The Past Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“Was there ever anything more predictable than human unkindness? Or more chilling than seeing how early it starts?” ChildrenYouthUnkindness Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“Later many people would say that if the schools had been closed right away, lives might have been saved. But at the time people argued that you couldn't just close the schools, because so many parents worked. If they had to stay home to take care of their kids, a lot of them would lose income, maybe even their jobs. Not to mention that businesses were already shorthanded because of all the employees out sick. Closing the schools might just make things worse.” ChildrenIllnessPandemicSchoolsBusinessesSchool Closures Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“She swiftly disabused us of certain notions acquired at school. America is the land of equal opportunity. All men are brothers. The best things in life are free.” ChildrenAmericaOpportunityBrotherhoodMothersFamiliesDaughters Book:A Feather on the Breath of God Source: A Feather on the Breath of God
“Only when I was young did I believe that it was important to remember what happened in every novel I read. Now I know the truth: what matters is what you experience while reading, the states of feeling that the story evokes, the questions that rise to your mind, rather than the fictional events described. They should teach you this in school, but they don’t.” FeelingsReadingBooksMemoryNovels Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“Nothing has changed. It’s still very simple. I miss him. I miss him every day. I miss him very much. But how would it be if that feeling was gone? I would not want that to happen. I told the shrink: it would not make me happy at all not to miss him anymore.” LoveDeathGrief Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“What exactly did Simone Weil mean when she said, When you have to make a decision in life, about what you should do, do what will cost you the most. Do what is difficult because it is difficult. Do what will cost you the most. Who were these people?” LifeDifficultyDecisionsImplicationsCosts Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“Golden hour, magic hour, l’heure bleue. Evenings when the beauty of the changing sky made us both go still and dreamy. Sunlight falling at an angle across the lawn so that it touched our elevated feet, then moved up our bodies like a long slow blessing.” BeautySkyDreamyGolden Hour Book:What Are You Going Through Source: What Are You Going Through
“It's only natural, Violet said. Everyone past a certain age is in a state of mourning for their youth.” YouthAgingOld AgeMourning Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“I confess to sudden rages. Walking in Midtown, rush hour's peak, people streaming in both directions, I find myself seething, ready to kill. Who are all these fucking people, and how is it fair, how is it even possible that all of them, these perfectly ordinary people, should be alive, when you--” LifeDeathLossGriefAngerRageMourning Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“They don't want to see me lose my home. They want me to come to my senses before it's too late. I need a better way to cope with my feelings of loss and guilt. I need bereavement therapy. Here are some names. I should think about medication. Here's what worked for them. There are books. There are websites. There are support groups. Healing won't come from withdrawing into a fantasy world, isolating myself, spending all my time with a dog. There is such a thing as pathological grief. There is the magical thinking of pathological grief, which is a kind of dementia. Which in their collective opinion is what I have.” LossGriefHealingAdviceMourningInterventionBereavement Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“The part of us that wants to be married and have a family is the part that wants to be normal, like other people, set on the path we were raised to believe was the right path--not just to happiness, but to respectability, acceptance, community. The part of us that wants love-potion-strength romance is the part that wants to go mad.” LoveHappinessRomanceCommunityFamilyMarriageAcceptanceMadnessNormalityRespectability Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“A friend of mine who is working on a memoir says, I hate the idea of writing as some kind of catharsis, because it seems like that can't possibly produce a good book. You cannot hope to console yourself for your grief by writing, warns Natalia Ginzburg. Turn then to Isak Dinesen, who believed that you could make any sorrow bearable by putting it into a story or telling a story about it.” WritingLossGriefSorrowCatharsis Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“How Nietzsche saw it: Of course hope is an evil. In reality it is the worst of all evils, he said, for it prolongs the torments of man.” EvilHopeTormentNietzsche Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“I believe the intensity of the pity you feel for an animal has to do with how it evokes pity for yourself.... Innocence is something we humans pass through and leave behind, unable to return. But animals live and die in that state, and seeing innocence violated in the form of cruelty to a mere duck can seem like the most barbaric act in the world.” PityCrueltyInnocenceAnimalsBarbarismAnimal WelfareCruelty To Animals Book:The Friend Source: The Friend
“From Addy in Berlin came the news that all social gatherings had been banned except for weddings and funerals, where the number of people could not be higher than twelve. ("I wonder if that's counting the bride and groom," Cole's mother said, and his father joked: "How about the corpse?")” IllnessPandemicBerlinWeddingsFuneralsSocial DistancingLockdowns Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“Because the second wave was so much more severe than the first, a lot of people refused to believe it could be the same disease. It had to be terrorism. They didn't care what medical experts kept telling them, about how it was the nature of influenza to occur in waves and that there was nothing about this pandemic, terrible though it was, that wasn't happening more or less as had long been predicted. No, not bioterrorism, others said, but a virus that had escaped from a laboratory. These were the same people who believed that both Lyme disease and West Nile virus were caused by germs that had escaped many years ago from a government lab off the coast of Long Island. They scoffed at the assertion that it was impossible to say for sure where the flu had begun because cases had appeared in several different countries at exactly the same time. Cover-up! Everyone knew the government was involved in the development of bioweapons. And although the Americans were not the only ones who were working on such weapons, the belief that they were somehow to blame--that the monster germ had most likely been created in an American lab, for American military purposes--would outlive the pandemic itself. In any case, according to a poll, eighty-two percent of Americans believed the government knew more about the flu than it was saying. And the number of people who declared themselves dead set against any vaccine the government came up with was steadily growing.” IllnessPandemicVaccinesCover UpsConspiracy TheoriesScapegoating Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“It happened to me the year I retired. You reach a certain age, and it all kicks in: Social Security, Medicare, and a fondness for hydrangeas.” AgingOld AgeRetirementFlowersSocial SecurityMedicareHydrangeas Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“In city after city, all over the world, the number of people appearing in surgical masks kept multiplying. Those still capable of frivolity added illustrations: luscious lips, stuck-out tongues, piano-keyboard smiles, and--most popular--vampire fangs. In Indianapolis, after hundreds of people fell ill over one weekend, no one was permitted to go out without a mask. But--as happened almost everywhere--there weren't enough masks to go around. Some made do with scarves or other pieces of cloth, or they tried taping gauze or paper to their faces. A lot of people just ignored the rule--and got away with it, the police being out sick in droves.” IllnessPandemicMasksLockdownsMask MandatesSurgical Masks Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“She worried about his father's fever, but couldn't say how high it was, the thermometer being one of several items that had managed somehow to get lost in the move from Chicago. And there were no more thermometers to be found at the drugstore. And once they'd used up the aspirin they had on hand, that was it. Like surgical masks and thermometers, cold and flu medication had run out everywhere. Rubbing alcohol, mouthwash, bleach--anything containing germ killer was also sold out.” IllnessPandemicSupply ChainShortages Book:Salvation City Source: Salvation City
“Time passing was life passing, I thought. It was life that flowed swiftly along in one direction and could not be seized or stopped. And this was something that weighed on grown-ups, an inexorable force that they feared.” LifeTimeAdultsAgingTime PassingFiniteness Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables
“If it is true that an inability to deal with the future is a sign of mental disturbance, I don't know anyone who is not now disturbed; who has not been disturbed for some time.” FutureMental HealthMental DisorderMental Disturbance Book:The Vulnerables Source: The Vulnerables