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“I cannot have an heir who thinks he is stronger than I am,” Alliddar leaned in closer to stare into Nye’s eyes. “It might have an adverse influence on my life expectancy, I hear. Which is why I asked Kerak to find me a flawed, ruthless Harbinger, someone with the will to annihilate Ivy if she becomes a witch, but not nearly strong enough to make me feel threatened in my position.”

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“The men and women who continue to hold Lynn's mind hostage against her will believe the future will be tilled with terrorism, death, destruction and a challenge to the survival of America. They believe Lynn and the other lab rats must still respond to their programming for they are the second line of defence against enemies from within and without and the first line of offence in a catastrophe which would require the recreation of America's constitutional government. They are still intent on preparing Lynn for the day when she will he necessary for battle. One summer day, all these dark realisations came flooding upon Lynn and she knew if she was ever to free herself, she needed to get immediate help.”

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